Issues being introduced

wwahwaahawawawhahhahawahwaahasniffwahahawahhwahwahhahwahhwahahah! why must i always end up regreting in the end, im sure we can get along, then why the hell did i get scared for! they aren't coming to kill me nor black mail me etc etc! whoever it is, new people are so scary! what if they leave me behind, what if they mock me! they are not the same group of people like last year, then why am i so sure that it will go the same way as always! bunch of stupid exeperiences! I can't exeperience new things if i have the same mindset! so what, do i wana relive a memory, ask them, can we still be friends, forgrt everything and run away! wel i do wana for get everything and run away! realisticly I'll have to wait another year, heck i wont even be able to go to a new school! and I will see the same faces, like last year, and the year before that! im so incredialy sensitive! if it was anyone else they would just ignore it! but i dont know how to do that! this new group im introduced to is bad! im bad, that's why i viewd it like that! luckily enough i dont know them in real life so are they, but i does not help! i will say something that'll mess up the mood and make them leave me, like before!