sooo my friend just bought me a new phone. WHAT THE ACTUAL. im so happy and i want to cry but im like all cried out tbh. im so so so so happy. I CANT BELIEVE ITTTTTTTTTTT!!!! im so happy im so fucking happy. i actually have a little hope now thanks to her. im glad someone really does care. im so greatful i dont even know how to tell her. she just saved me and i dont even think she knows it. her mo... » Continue Reading
i feel like im venting too much but i dont have anyone to talk to lol. promise im not insane(maybe). i havent had the energy to write in my journal like i usually do so this is how im getting my feels out. :/ » Continue Reading
today i realized im alone like completely alone. no one is coming to save me and it was stupid to think someone would. no one cares about me like that. no one LOVES me like that. i am completely stuck. i dont want to fight anymore. im so tired of fighting. im so tired of living. everyday is a struggle to find a reason to stay. i dont care if i go to hell at this point. at least ill be free. peace ... » Continue Reading
GUESS WHO DOESN'T WANT TO GO HOMEEE???? im tryna to get one of my friends mom to take me but idk. She said she would help and the school social worker said he was telling cps but i know first hand that cps fucking sucks at helping people so i dont have high hopes for that. if she doesnt take me im probably going to just walk along the train tracks on my own and take pictures with my camera. lets h... » Continue Reading
in the span of a day i just lost everything. yesterday was my birthday and it was a normal day. nothing happened. my birthday wish was that i'd finally get to experience love and get a partner but instead of love i might be getting admitted to a mental hospital. i'm disrespectful and disobedient. i'm a big disappointment who is going to hell. everything is the phone's fault never my mom because sh... » Continue Reading
how tf do people make friends??I don't understand how to do that shit online or irl. i have one close friend. ONE and i would die for her. shes so amazing and i love her so much but i get lonely sometimes. plus we're long distance so it sucks even more. :( i just want cool friends man. BUT ITS SO HARD TO MEET PEOPLEEEE!1!1!11 but i either am super awkward or i get ghosted. it really sucks. i dont ... » Continue Reading
we are so fucked. i can’t believe trump won. ITS SO OVER. and IM A TRIPLE MINORITY? i even saw TRANS PEOPLE VOTING FOR HIM?? AND BLACK PEOPLE TOO? like why are y’all voting against your own rights. it’s just sad how uneducated our communities are. trump doesn’t give two shits about black or trans people. why the fuck are you voting for him? taking about gays for trump. like babe trees for deforest... » Continue Reading
i just realized that my life is getting serious. like my grades are actually starting to matter and this shit depnds on whether i have a future or not. i hate school so much but without it im fucked and thats all setting in JUST NOW. if i cant lock in these four years its over for me. :( » Continue Reading