hey gang. sometimes when its a late hour like it is now i kind of just go back and think about my entire life and stuff, i hear a lot of people just do that sometimes. thinking about it makes me feel kind of miserable and thats why im so miserable all the time or at least why I act so miserable. Its not even because my life is hard because, its not, its just i dont freaking like thinking about bei... » Continue Reading
hey gang. i finally get a rest from the freaking torment for two days. i have to see my family tomorrow, early in the morning too. god, i do NOT feel like seeing my distant family rn, we just had a memorial thing for my dead uncle on the 12th i think and everybody was there and crying and stuff and talking to each other, and saying bible verses while I just stood around like an imbecile, just star... » Continue Reading
Its been 20 days since I made a blog entry. I keep forgetting that I'm trying to use this as my second diary. I've been hating even more on my shithole redneck conservative county more than usual now since the election but I'm not even gonna get into it rn, sigh. Instead, here are some of my more recent journal entries and doodles without any context. » Continue Reading
Okay so I finally figured out how to put images on my blog I just upload my pictures onto my pinterest then get their urls there. I meant to post this earlier because I made this in my diary about a week or two ago I just couldn't figure out how to get the url but wtevr. This is a doodle the little cow i have as my pfp but now it's a little angel :3 » Continue Reading
Basically all the time I spend by myself is spent thinking deeply about stupid stuff and then ruining for myself. I thinking about purity and beauty and ugliness and how they're not real but even though I know these things I still conform to them. I don't eat as much as I used to, I don't eat a lot, then I get angry and think rude things about a person when I watch them eat because it's something ... » Continue Reading
I'm not really sure if a lot of you guys know but there is a lot of gun violence happening rn but mostly at schools. There was literally a school shooting in Georgia just the other week, like we're only in the first month of school why is it happening? Yesterday my best friend called me and she was so upset bc a junior had two loaded guns on them and got arrested just in the middle of the school d... » Continue Reading