11/11

Its been 20 days since I made a blog entry. I keep forgetting that I'm trying to use this as my second diary. I've been hating even more on my shithole redneck conservative county more than usual now since the election but I'm not even gonna get into it rn, sigh. Instead, here are some of my more recent journal entries and doodles without any context. 

Yeah thats most of it. Also I finally made an online friend like a good one so I mostly just text him all day bc all my other friends are demented. 90% of the past two weeks have been texting him, drawing, and procrastinating school, what else can I say. At least I'm actually talking to somebody cool now, I feel so indifferent around some of the friends that I've been known for a while, mostly bc they just haven't changed at all, they're still so immature and not in a funny way or anything like that idk how to describe it. Its just the only jokes they can make have to be a slur or smth which idec its just they really can't even make anything else up. I probably sound kind of like a dick rn but you'd just have to be around them. Boys at my school are all evil, cant even go lesbian bc all the girls at my school are also evil. I feel like everybody is so violent at school, I get so freaking upset when I see a fight and idk why. At least my friends aren't violent.

Didn't make any music in like over a month. Damn i forgot to tell you my computer finally just fucking died, a virus got I think lol. Heres my shitass setup its literally two TV trays and a chair from the dining room. This is where the magic happens.

My room is so ugly at my dads house. My room at my moms house is cool though thats where all my trinkets and stuff are. Wish I could stay at my moms all the time but I don't get a say. The community is better at my mom too btw. 

I actually worked out today tho which is good bc I haven't really been doing that lately. I quit that stupid rules thing I made like a month or two ago bc its too hard and like i just want to do whatever I want. I'm like 135 now so I'm less freaking upset, thats pretty average ig. 120 is good enough for me. Idrc that much now tho since its only 15 pounds to take off so I'm kind of doing whatever. Its veterans day so my dad took us around to get as much free food as he could (he's a vetran) and I got a Christmas coffee thing from Starbucks its was good I forget the name. My main focus rn is getting my money up bc I'm trying to get a new wardrobe, so I have to make my christmas list count this year, ill ask for a visa gift card or smth bc my dad does not know how to buy clothes for a teenage girl. Learned the hard way last year.

Okay thats really it, ill probably try to blog a little more i like to diary.