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incredibly exhausted early-ish in the morning. i do not typically like espousing so many thoughts nor firing off many synapses before 2pm. i'm thinking about how much i wish i was more capable of understanding what i need to do for myself. i have basic steps but no understanding of what to do next, and when i do have an understanding of what to do, i end up being roadblocked for sometimes weeks b... » Continue Reading
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lately i've been trying my luck too much. iv fallen exactly into the trap of relying on my luck as a crutch and eventually, naturally, you run out. iv been exhausted the past few weeks, basically unable to salvage a moment alone that feels purifying or inflicts wellness in me. just turnstyled, junkpiled, and plain rotten. a close friend, an accomplice, really got his appendix removed yet lives i... » Continue Reading
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i went out today, like a normal human being who does normal human things. isn't that psychotic? i went out an was normal. i nicked a lot, including a signed [by warren ellis] first print of transmetropolitan: lust for life. i didn't know any of those things when i took it, but i am amazed at that luck. since i'm in the middle of a full frontal manic breakdown; i have been doing a lot -- a little ... » Continue Reading
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since nobody knows i'm here, i can say whatever i want. i was tossing around and thinking about how much i want to sleep, sleep forever. a permanent sleep that isn't death but has some sortuv comatose state. i woke up a little too early today and i'm praying to god i can find what i need to survive in the extreme heat. texas summers are back, baby! and in a whole new way 'cuz your brain has bec... » Continue Reading
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i had a rabid manic episode today, and i was having more fun than anyone could ever imagine, and then my mother [V] decided to give me a valium. hence, i have been forced into being calm when i had all these ideas and things i wanted to do. yes, mania maybe terrifying to her but for me, it is the only time i will be able to get things done and that's significantly more important to me than not s... » Continue Reading
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