i just decided to share this with the public, so bear w me here alr? T.T _____________________________________________________________________ why did i have a bad dream, wake up from it, and still feel the heaviness in my chest? the worst part is that it's 6am, and my room feels so gloomy and quiet. it’s like i never left the dream. i’m still sitting on my bed, too terrified to move, paralyzed by... » Continue Reading
reciprocity has always been my thing, it’s how i get close to people, but lately, i’ve been feeling down and unmotivated to do things for others, to make an effort. i used to come up with great ideas to make my friends happy, but now, it all feels pointless... my energy just doesn’t come to life like it used to. i’m starting to wonder if it’s because they’re not treating me the way i deserve. i do... » Continue Reading
SOME ppl who live alone tend to feel isolated and suffer from depression, maybe bc they talk less in a day, which leads to having an extremely loud and noisy mind? i realized this today, even though i'm not alone. i didn't smile all day, even though there wasn't a major problem. is it normal to mourn something i've never had? is it normal to feel sad about something i've never known? i guess i jus... » Continue Reading
my lazy self have no idea how productive and motivated i am today. tmrw's the exam so my drill is to fry my brain the day before. today's that day. i'm so into deep studying that i'm running out of time to live. i have to write my thoughts down here tho so i can have smth to look at for my future lazy self. i always regret procrastinating and wasting my time on things that don't rlly matter. i can... » Continue Reading
thoughts about life ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ! simple. it's like living surrounded by nature! ʚ(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ ikr? it sounds so nice! ^^ the rain, the thunde » Continue Reading