apologies for my bad english.......so i stopped talking to this two girls (read earlier entries to understand) i gave been so called friends for few months and noww.. im so called friends with anothwer girl. From one side shes nice and sweet and surely wont hurt me but from another hand...everytime i talk to her in class or in places where my classmates are too she always says or acts so cringey t... » Continue Reading
I kinda understand that my view of friendship is egoistic and some kind of selfish but i feel like i dont need it other way. There is actually no point for me to be with someone if they place me as 3rd or 6th among their other friends. No point for me to be then cause no one is going to do that for me. Im feeling so sick. Im a real freak or just another edgy teen fuck? Maybe i am like this because... » Continue Reading
I want people. I want to communicate. i want to have true friends. I hat efeeling like a stray dog even with my closest friends. I know i shall value the connection i have with them and i actually do but do they too? Do they value me? I mean, yeah, they are so cool and nice but... Do they actually need me to talk to them? Or they just pity me because i have no one exept them? i dont know//' aaah c... » Continue Reading