Been a while since I've posted anything here. Apologies, been sick on and off this entire summer. I've spent the last 2 months reading through Homestuck for the first time ever. I had always heard of it as some massive monolith of internet subculture that I either was too scared to attempt to climb or psyopped myself into believing is a gay waste of time for 13 year old demisexual Tumblrites. Whi... » Continue Reading
I consistently feel like the biggest failure within my family and it weighs like a ten ton boulder upon my back. My sister found a good boyfriend with a stable job and have recently moved into a HOUSE in the CURRENT ECONOMY. My brother is in college to become an engineer and not only is he on track to graduate before me he is much more popular, being a regular participant in his frat group and be... » Continue Reading
I am almost never happy. This is something I've just learned to accept over time. I don't even remember this being some grand inciting event or anything. I remember going on the few vacations my family could afford when I was younger and being annoyed that everyone else was seemingly enjoying themselves and were having a great time. I couldn't really understand it. It was neat, I guess, but I didn... » Continue Reading
The first sensation that you experience within this life is one of unearned cerebral torture. Hardly understanding even what reality is in this moment, you are suddenly awoken from what has felt like an endless sleep by a fierce shock dancing across your entire brain. Coming from the base of your skull the sensation is paralyzingly painful, and any thoughts your young mind could hope to mus... » Continue Reading
Growing up I didn't have many things. My family was quite poor, my father was nearly always out for work and until I was 14 or so we moved every other year just about. Food was scarce during the months leading up towards Christmas, as it was the only way my parents could afford the holiday for us. Due to this, as well as being an autistic loser of a kid, I had few friends and fewer things t... » Continue Reading