therapist said my coping mechanismz r gettin better... im glad about that cuz likie before id lose it under this stress n do stuff i shouldnt some really unhealthy coping mechanisms but this time i just started working on a new writing project to channel those emotions into insteazd :) i just feel bad for mny ex.. found out sm stuff going on with him that he doesn't deserve even if he was awful to... » Continue Reading
I WALK AROUND LIEK IM ALIVE AGAIN BUT IK ITS JUST NAWWWWT THE SAMEEEE god i love that song.. .anyways!!! i made a youtube channel for my video diaries, so now u don't have to go back to my last blog posts to find them!!! its @menacetosobriety705 » Continue Reading
im havin one of the worst weeks OF MY FUCKING LIFE!!!! and that's really sayin something because i was homeless for months on end a few years ago. but omfg. my childhood dog died, i got barely any sleep, worked a fuckin useless job for 12 hours a day FOR LESS THAN 2 DOLLARS A DAMN HOUR. then my exes mom pawned a dog she didn't want off on me right after my last one died and i love her soo much but... » Continue Reading
guess whose back :3 im better.. at least i dont wanna date that peice of shit guy anymore. he was really abusive and he kinda fucked me up for a while but its alright. i wasnt super super close with any1 on here back when i used to blog so idk if anyone remembers me but anyway. im back! » Continue Reading
guess who should have gone to the ER but my ex stopped me from getting medical attention so now im home w a huge gash in my leg ^-^ wayyy too long of a story 4 me to type out but yea .. im gonna try n get back to the ER tmrw guess he rly hates me! » Continue Reading
i miss him i miss him imiss him i miss him i miss him i misss him :(( i just want him back i want everything i had last month back i want IT BACK!!!! ! I WANT MY LIFE BACK! !! give it back!!!!! i can't learn how to live life without you, without your family, without our tv shows and brushing one another's hair, without your adorably shitty music taste we'd sing together and embarrass ourselves.... » Continue Reading
HAI HOW R U ALL. I AM NOT DOING GRWEAT BUT I WILL B E OK. i am watxching weirdcore videoz on yt... . and liminal space vids.. i lvoe liminal spaces sm. they feel so comfy and safe i wana live in 1!! ! i just miss him a lot but knowing now that he rly doesn't care as much as i did to the point he's not even thinking abt us anymore lets me know i gotta get over it. i rly do. i gotta try. IL STOP TAL... » Continue Reading
its 5 am and i'm too tired to get up and make food but also too hungry to sleep, so here's what's happened over the last few hours.. texted to him again, basically begged him in a respectful wayu to tell me wtf was goin on and if he wanted to work this out or not. he said.... no. he's just not ready 4 a relationship rn. so all these months of him telling me he's in love with me, planning our futur... » Continue Reading
Y AM I SO ANNOYING!!!!! i asked him again if he thought abt what he wants to do going forward.... now that he knows the reason we broke up was a lie... . i feel like i'm pressuring him to get back together n i rly dont wanna do that my heart just hurts i want us to be on the same page- i can't move on if i don't even know if he wants to talk this whole thing thru or not. waiting on a response rn..... » Continue Reading
"what if i'm nothin' but a cardiac arresting sweetheart? a half run over cat, left in the street and you're the maggot cravin' rotten flesh left outside in the heat" -dazey and the scouts, maggot » Continue Reading