Change is such a hard thing. No one likes it, no one wants it, but it's constantly always happening. And the best part.. no one can stop it. nothing can stop it. Anytime you want something to go back to how it was and you should always just accept it. your life, the world, everything around you. It is always changing. It will always change. nothing will ever stay the same. Your life will never be ... » Continue Reading
. I yearn for a day I don't sob or weep anymore, my skin bruised and battled from my own war. The red lines I painted covers me, The urge to continue » Continue Reading
. I yearn for a day I don't sob or weep anymore, my skin bruised and battled from my own war. The red lines I painted covers me, The urge to continue » Continue Reading
I think I'm genuinely at one the lowest if not the lowest part of my life, and it doesn't feel like a single person actually gives a shit about me. like I have no friends, no family, no nothing. it's not that people don't know, I make it so obvious. yet I always scream but no one ever awnsers, no one ever comes to help me. anytime someone finally listens for a moment they turn it around to them ho... » Continue Reading
I can still remember how your hands felt on my skin How I wanted to push them away but was to scared to To scared to say no to scared to fight To push you off me But my body and mind will forever with I did Because I can not forget It would be so much easier to forgive you if I could just forget But No matter how much I want I can't forget Why can't I forget ? I can't look at you the same You ... » Continue Reading
I hate this I hate being the bad person I hate not knowing how to control my emotions I hate getting mad over nothing I hate that i hurt the people who care for me when im mad I hate that I hurt myself I hate that i punch shit so hard my knuckles bleed when im mad I hate that i fuck up everything i do I hate how ever small thing triggers me I hate that im just like my mom I hate how i act I ... » Continue Reading
I'm done trying for you I've put so much energy into everything for you with nothing back I'm done trying for you I'm exhausted I'm tired of fighting I have no more energy for you. I'm done trying I'm so tired I'm just done trying. I'm done trying to be better I'm just done. I'm to tired to get better I'm too tired i can't keep going like this. » Continue Reading
What happened all at once I felt like I was fighting for my life a battle against myself my mind and the world but the world's winning not me all I can do is lay in my bed all day I'm not happy anymore I don't know what to do anymore nothing makes me feel good about myself nothing makes me happy I can't eat and if I do it makes me feel sick my body hurts my body is in sm pain my mind is in sm pain... » Continue Reading
Then all of a sudden it was all back. I was drowning again. Ignoring everyone Staying in bed all day, Avoiding people, Not eating all day and purging at night, Not sleeping at night but » Continue Reading