Then all of a sudden it was all back.

 I was drowning again. 

Ignoring everyone 

Staying in bed all day, Avoiding people, Not eating all day and purging at night, Not sleeping at night but Sleeping all day, Being high 24/7, Balling my eyes out every night. But then there were also things that were new that hurt too.

Hitting the walls , Hitting myself, throwing things, Destroying things just because, and hurting other people. 

I'm so tired of drowning.

 I just want a break but I can't even have one day anymore, I just need a break all a sudden it got sm worse it was ok but not anymore. it's all gotten to much it's like no one cares I make it so obvious but no one no one at all.

 I just wanna end it all so I never have to deal with this again im sooo so so tired of being tired. I just need to breathe but I'm drowning in a pool of water that won't drain. After a little my sun evaporated some of the water so I could breathe again. But now there's the rain that keep fill up the water making it overflow again. Making it hard to breathe. Making me drown again. And I can't take it anymore. 

It's like no one cares at all especially the people who I want to care who should care. And I'm just so tired of drowning.