I am sad to know that I was probably not wrong about what was going to happen. I keep thinking if it happened because it had to happen or if it was also sabotage on my part. I blame myself for many things , for not being able to be happy, for not being chosen over anything or anyone, I am still sad for not being able to be loved the way I want. Why do I have to feel like everything is my fault » Continue Reading
I have been meeting many people throughout my life , I always thought that my sexuality was something I should constantly explore, and that is what I did. But why don't I feel the same as when I fell in love with girls? I never took my relationships with men seriously because I never saw them as a safe connection , and to this day I feel » Continue Reading
Why not me? Why does all this affect me ? Why can't anyone truly love me when it's the only thing I want? Everything is about an imaginary beauty and not about my own tastes or interests. I feel like I give too much to people who give too little, who don't feel anything, who don't know how to communicate with me or give words of encouragement. I'm tired of giving kisses, hugs, of only wanting skin... » Continue Reading