NEWS REGARDING ME In protest to the recent decision of An, I will now stop posting my blogs to this site. I may come online time to time, but don't count on it. If you want to continue reading my blogs or interact with me more often, then please join the new alternative site started by my good friend Sarmonera. I had joined the site on Day 1, and the following day I announced that » Continue Reading
I remember seeing a video pop up in my recommended; I didn't save it, but the title was something along the lines of "NEVER tell people your problems", and when I went to the comments, you saw a bunch of people concurring and relaying their stories of pain. But they're all missing something; that is, why do they have the desire to tell people their struggles even if it lead to them being hurt? It'... » Continue Reading
Something I find extremely ironic is that strict parents seem to think that forcing discipline will make the children disciplined; but it does quite the opposite, due to a simple yet fundamental misunderstanding of the human psyche. I have had this hunch for a while, but I never found the exact causal link until now. So imagine you have a baby, right? What does a baby do when it needs something? I... » Continue Reading
It's 4AM and I can't sleep. To be murdered hungry and thirsty... The grief from the news was so great I didn't want to believe it at first, but I cannot deny what is apparent any longer. I will not waste your time and keep things brief. Though this was intensely shocking, it also serves as a reminder. Our time is nigh, act while you still can. Martyrdom is the greatest salvation. Fear not the grav... » Continue Reading
「あんたなんか産まなきゃ良かった」 "I should have never have given birth to you". Imagine hearing this from your very own mother all your life, and then on her death bed, you finally hear her say: 「あなたを産んで本当に良かった」 "I'm so glad I gave birth to you". But by then... Is it too late? Unfortunately, this was the fate of a certain person I may or may not know, and I would like to discuss the topic in more depth. Continui... » Continue Reading
Continuing on from the second theme I brought up in the last entry... Do you know exactly how many days I've been without my mother and brother? Zero. And even for the moments I was away, such as school, there was always some sort of supervision. You know, I even remember during trips and such, I would always want to let go of my mother's hand and explore things myself. And even somewhat recently,... » Continue Reading
Ugh, this is gonna be a bit of a painful one. Not just because I'm examining myself, but also because I'm admitting myself. If you know my wish of being someone people look up to as described in Entry #72, you'd understand. I might have to do this in a series because it goes so deep; but one I became conscious of it, I felt remiss to ignore it any longer. That is, how I've always had an obsession ... » Continue Reading
Something I've noticed is how people may be so eager to throw away their conscience for ephemeral moments of relief. Don't misunderstand, I fully get the feeling; but when you sit down and think about it for a moment, isn't it just a tad ridiculous? It's almost like a test of your mettle for how much you can handle until you sell your soul. I already knew the bits and pieces of information here, b... » Continue Reading
It feels like I'm in jail for a crime I never committed. I'm forced to work on rubbish I don't care about just to eat. And how long has this gone on for..? Man, in addition to this, it feels like I never really had a proper childhood either. I mean, I guess going to court at age 11 does that to you... Wait, so am I serving time but in some sort of weird cosmic karma bullshit way??? You know, usua... » Continue Reading
This is gonna be another poetry dump. This time, not only will I be showing some Chinese poetry, but also Japanese poetry. I know the title says Haiku, but there is one in here which is not a haiku haha. But anyway, I truly hope you enjoy! This first one is my most recent one. I typically write haiku in Japanese, but I decided to try writing one in Chinese, and honestly you have a lot more room wi... » Continue Reading
Tonight, 1192 years ago, the final Imam was born... Imam Muhammad al-Mahdi, may God hasten his reappearance. Tonight in this short writing, I would like to remind myself of him... Imam Hasan al-Askari, may peace be upon him, would say: "More severe than the orphan hood of the orphan who has lost his mother and father is the orphan hood of the one who is cut off from his Imam and cannot reach him, ... » Continue Reading
I was listening to a lecture one of my close friends was giving, and he showed us some of his old journal entries. They were very painful to hear, so to spare you the details, they were basically the most self deprecating things you could possibly imagine. I've seen similar things occur in many other people, and it is really quite saddening. It really isn't all that surprising if you consider my s... » Continue Reading