i had a blog post pinned that i made like 8 months ago to introduce myself but im human and i change slightly over time so here's a new one. Hello! I am Sylvester! i am 21 years old (minors plz dni), trans man, hailing from around midwest usa. my music taste wildly varies because when i say i listen to everything i mean everything. at the moment though ive been listening to mcr, depeche mode, mi... » Continue Reading
my bagel this morning sang a beautiful choir song to me and glowed under the morning light/ it was delicious. currently watching bojack horseman, we just watched three episodes of jojo (harvest parts 1+2 and the cinderella episode in part 4 hehe). gonna carpet clean and probably some other shit and try to get my laundry done at some point and tomorrow ive got an interview and im visiting my famil... » Continue Reading
tonight i had a big beautiful ramen bowl and a big beautiful greenery bowl and a beautiful show. watch socpens on twitch and youtube, he just had an officially sponsored (by sega) sonic racing stream!! he does Beautiful Discs and VHS Viewingz and he makes me smile and laugh!! my noodle bowl consisted of Pork and Bok Choy and Misc! it even had a dollop of peanut butter in it im fuckin » Continue Reading
ok i had to private a couple of blog posts because they definitely shouldve just been private diary entries and not. public blog posts on a public forum im not making great choices right now and im doing my best to learn from them as quick and maturely as i can but i am not perfect, i am doing stupid shit thoughtlessly because im getting caught up in my emotions and it’s effecting my decision maki... » Continue Reading
woke up this morning at about 6:30 to my cat puking right next to my head :/ the beautiful dark foggy morning made it a little nicer though today i have a buncha chores to do before roomie (hyde)’s grandma comes to visit for thanksgiving. i met her briefly last year, but ive been told she can be a bit Much so im sorta edgy about meeting her again, especially since i live here now and she’ll be st... » Continue Reading
so. im a silly boy i ended up texting my ex like. an hour after making my big sad blog post about our breakup, and for whatever cosmic reason, he responded. long long conversation short, im walking away with a lot more calm and clarity than i think i expected to get, but that i really wanted in retrospect. i took a big blink inward and thought more about the behaviors he explained to me that had ... » Continue Reading
woah what the hell it’s been 6 months since i hopped on here let’s see what’s new - ive been on testosterone for a few months now and im growing about seven facial hairs and a beautiful happy trail - i worship the greek god Pan but he’s not around at the moment bc he fucks off during winter :/ - foinally getting into lifting and shit. my back looks hilariously disproportionately muscular compared... » Continue Reading
good evening it's been several months since ive logged on. call that mental illness. i will now recap everything that has happened since i last posted anything. - i am now 21 years old. party hardy. - i am inked (stick and poke protection sigil from boyfriend) - took a month long trip and sustained second degree burns on a booze cruise in florida - i am back to drawing now but it's only sonic ch... » Continue Reading
idk WHAT happened to me but just within the past like. week or so i feel like ive come back from the dead. i dont really know how to describe how my mental state was for the past few months other than "Someone else (or a collection of mist and fog) was piloting my body. It got a job and spent all my money but I'm back now." idk how weird this is but i felt like my name wasn't my own. i felt like i... » Continue Reading
woahh so it's been a quick second since ive been on here. my deepest apolocheese, ive been inactive pretty much everywhere on the internet. since my last post my mental health has spiraled more and more out of control. currently writing this from my friend's couch because ive had crazy cabin fever at my house. so ive visited my family once since i came out and it went. fine i guess. my grandma di... » Continue Reading