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woahh so it's been a quick second since ive been on here. my deepest apolocheese, ive been inactive pretty much everywhere on the internet. since my last post my mental health has spiraled more and more out of control. currently writing this from my friend's couch because ive had crazy cabin fever at my house. 

so ive visited my family once since i came out and it went. fine i guess. my grandma did at first make an effort to use my preferred name but it seems like none of my family does it when speaking to each other, same with my pronouns. my mom never acknowledged that id come out at all, even after id subtly brought it up a couple times. that's fine. whatever girlfriend. 

in better news, i now have an appointment set to start talking to someone about starting testosterone in january! it's kinda funny to me because i technically started T last january (my boyfriend swapped from gel to injections and let me finish off his container of gel) but since then ive had nothing. my friend offered to give me his leftover injectable stuff since he's now swapping to gel, but i dont really wanna start myself on injections too soon before i get my own prescription so i dont have withdrawal symptoms.

idk. other than that i havent done much. been stuck going fucking crazy in my bedroom and being chronically online. hooopefully that changes soon because i HAVE to be mentally prepared for when The Sludge takes office in january lmao