When I am anticipating something, that I know can go wrong I am always thinking about it. When I fail I think about the feeling I feel, the amount of guilt, and shame I feel will last forever. So when I eventually get out of feeling sad, it is something else. I failed, this is how I will feel forever. No, it isn't I hate how I think I hate a lot about myself I have 0 self-compassion just self-pity... » Continue Reading
Hi, again I'm going through it, dude. I don't know where to start so I'll just say whatever. I have always been afraid of new, change, anything different. I never wanted to try anything because I was more afraid of embarrassment than any good thing that could come out of any risk. This has been absolutely demolishing to my self-esteem. I have hundreds if not thousands of regrets that I desperately... » Continue Reading
Where do I start? What do I say? Should I wait? I'm worried. I'm writing in front of you, I have a journal I write in, I don't care as much how I write in it. No one can see my mistakes in it. Here, I feel vulnerable. I'm a horrid speller, and I'm using a plug-in to fix all my spelling mistakes, in my journal there are umpteen spelling mistakes, hell you most likely couldn't read my writing, I kno... » Continue Reading