it’s almost march

this weekend my friends and i played cards and dnd and we went to dunkin doughnuts and absolutely blasted abba in the car and they let me draw beetles on their hands and i am so happy that i have them because otherwise i’d have spent all weekend anxiously spiraling into madness because my deadline is So Soon and it is the scariest thing that I’ve already done the hard part of. all i need to do is submit my portfolio and rip myself open for a bunch of judges to tell me it’s not good enough to do the only thing i’ve wanted to do since i was a little kid. i know what they’re looking for and i don’t have that level skill. if i had maybe a few more months to prepare i could have scraped together something halfway decent but i didn’t know what i was supposed to be doing for so long. i don’t even know what i’m doing after i submit the thing i genuinely don’t know what my life looks like on march second. lol. i hope it gets warmer soon i Need to have the window open i want to be outside and sit in the sun so bad. i miss when it wasn’t bitter cold.