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nothing lasts forever. bottom line. i was talking to someone in recovery the other day and they said, "I don't believe in the pink cloud. It's an illusion." this "pink cloud" is a common term in recovery circles, similar in definition to "honeymoon period." it's that period of time when you're happy just to be a part of something new, either recovery or a relationship, and then gravity pulls you b... » Continue Reading
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FUCK THE WORLD okay, now that i've gotten that out of my system, i have something serious to talk about people say that anger is like drinking a poison and expecting another person to die. but is that true? i think anger is a healthy emotion that needs to be let out. but our reactions to anger aren't always healthy, and that's the key point. i can feel angry, and not act upon it. but, what am i su... » Continue Reading
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"Emotions are like clouds. They pass over quickly, change, and disappear with time. They're not permanent." i said this working with some clients, and i meant it. but one client said something i resonated with: "Emotions are just chemicals." they were right. emotions come from chemical reactions in the brain that fire off to produce adrenaline, serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin and more. emotions are ... » Continue Reading
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i'm in a college class about drugs, health and society. my professor posted an assignment about exploring an aspect of our culture and sharing with others in a short essay. then we're tasked with following up on two others' posts. a few classmates have posted about food, or their ancestry. and it got me thinking. what the fuck is my culture? i'm white, whiter and whitest. my ancestry is littered w... » Continue Reading
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a client came to me recently and said something to the effect of, "some people are just evil." this client believes in their heart that some people are beyond redemption. it's hard to argue with that, especially with all that's wrong in the world. but, is it true? who decides whom is worthy of, or beyond the point of, redemption? last time i checked, none of us is a god. i wrote about this a few w... » Continue Reading
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last weekend was the Folsom Street Fair and i didn't participate, partly because i was working and partly because i felt like i had nobody to go with even if i wanted to be there. that's a lie. i had friends who went. i had friends who would go with me , if i'd have bothered to ask. i didn't have a whole lot of time to be there, but i didn't really want to go anyway. that's a lie. i wanted to go. ... » Continue Reading
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i differentiate between liberals and leftists, so if you don't or can't understand that, either get lost or stick around and find out what i'm talking about. i posted 2 weeks ago about freedom of speech and why it's important, but doesn't protect people from consequences. arguably, Charlie Kirk was a sacrifice to his own cause in this regard. there are conspiracy theories about his death and some ... » Continue Reading
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i used to think i had to be busy all the time. sometimes, i still believe that. the truth is, i get more rest these days than i ever have in my life. not in a lethargic, lackadaisical sort of way, but in a way that says i'm listening to my body's needs. i'm a very busy person. in fact, i work about 50-60 hours a week between my full-time job and my side gig. that's not some Gigachad grindmaxxing f... » Continue Reading
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freedom of speech is not freedom from consequences. Charlie Kirk once said that the First Amendment shouldn't apply to Satanists. he believed that leftists were dangerous to political discussion. he said empathy was for idiots, he was pro-life, and he purported that deaths were an "unfortunate" necessity for gun rights. Charlie Kirk was assassinated on September 10th, and someone asked me, "why ar... » Continue Reading
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Anton LaVey put it sardonically: "The Atheist complains about the wind. The Christian prays for it to change. The Satanist adjusts his sails." i was co-facilitating a counseling group recently and used a modified version of this quote to fit the crowd. nary a person to out myself as a Satanist to my clients, i replaced each with, "the pessimist," "the optimist," and "the realist," respectively. to... » Continue Reading
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over 5 and a half months ago, i had a revelation: i needed to let go of my qualifier. i'm here today to say that i'm working on it. i had a "bad" dream last week. i was at a large event, and then there was a mandatory meeting at my qualifier's house. throughout the dream, she was avoiding me. it went so far as me seeing her peeking out of her room to check if i was still around, and immediately re... » Continue Reading
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i've spent much of my life searching for God. i've read about various religions and spiritual paths. i've practiced witchcraft and paganism. i became a militant atheist and anti-Christian for several years, only to become a post-Christian Satanist in my mid-20's. here i am as a member of 12-Step programs, constantly reminded to put my faith into a Higher Power of some kind, "God as I understand Go... » Continue Reading
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