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I feel ashamed of myself for my actions. I feel like they define me. Am I evil? I know my actions were influenced by how I grew up but it's not an excuse and I can't stop thinking I'm never going to be part of the good guys. Am I meant to suffer and make others suffer? Am I always going to be rotten? Am I still rotten despite all my efforts to not be the person I used to be? » Continue Reading
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I know my mum used to hit me, a lot. I remember often being hurt and crying. It's weird. I only have few memories of her actually hurting me but they're quite blurry. I know I've been hurt but I have no proof as if nothin ever happened. I remember some details but not actual memories. I know I hated her. I love my mum now but sometimes I miss that time when she used to hit me. I feel like it made... » Continue Reading
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I don't want to be who I am. I wanna grow wings and fly away from here. Please let me leave earth. I want to fly forever and never look back » Continue Reading
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I don't want to be here. I have no faith in us. I don't want to be human. I'm disgusted we're disgusting. I hope earth explodes and destroy our kind. I'm mean and rotten just like the others » Continue Reading
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I need to reset myself, destroy who I am. I hate who I am. I want to start over and I need help. I don't want to be me. I'm ruined, disgusting and mean. I feel so dirty. I'm never going to become a butterfly. I can't change what I've done. I can't change what I've been. It's not fair. Please let me leave this life. I don't want to be who I am. I want to erase it » Continue Reading
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I don’t have anyone to talk about these things so im being an idiot and posting them on the internet. My friends might not understand, my lover is sad i don’t want to bother her, my mum will invade and get involved, my therapist won’t do much. I’m all alone. I’ve got no one to talk to. I was born alone. I’ll die with all my worries for myself with no one to share them to. » Continue Reading
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I’m scared my bff told me she spoke with an ex that left a mark on me. I genuinely want to puke when i think about him. I feel so uneasy and feel weak. Apparently it’s nothing big but i’m still anxious. I can’t shake the feeling. I really want to puke each time i think about it. ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡ I think imma just stay in bed and wait until i get over it because i can’t stop shaking. » Continue Reading
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People are being so helpful but it’s getting worse. My chest hurts, everything hurts. It needs to end. I will always be a source of suffering for me and others. I can’t change. No matter how much I try it never works. I don’t really know when to do it. I’m scared. » Continue Reading
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I'm mean, deeply flawed and selfish. I can't ever move on from things. No matter ho much my friends love me they'll leave once they'll realize what I am. I feel like the devil has spread his poison in me. Why am I so wicked? So mean? So difficult ? I can't get over my shame and guilt. I hate that i've been the way i am. I'm sorry Lan-Anh I ruined our friendship. I'm sorry to myself for putting me... » Continue Reading
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I'm in constant pain. Why won't it spare me. Do I deserve this? Please let me go » Continue Reading
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I feel it, I need to do something. I don't care what it is. Life on earth makes me sick. I do not feel well. I want the burn in my chest to stop. Please make it stop. I don't deserve to be forced to live like this. Can't I be at peace for more than 2 days? I don't want to hurt myself but I need to. I need to free myself from what's going on inside. I can't bare it anymore. I want to live. I want t... » Continue Reading
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This feeling goes away for a couple of days but immediately comes back. I've been like this for years. I want to exist. My life is a simulation. Death is not an end. I must pretend i'm one of you. 12-18 this feeling persists » Continue Reading
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