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I feel ashamed of myself for my actions. I feel like they define me. Am I evil? I know my actions were influenced by how I grew up but it's not an excuse and I can't stop thinking I'm never going to be part of the good guys. Am I meant to suffer and make others suffer? Am I always going to be rotten? Am I still rotten despite all my efforts to not be the person I used to be?
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When I was younger, I had these feelings, and then I read "The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde". I felt that there was someone in the world who understood me, that I wasn't alone with these thoughts. The main idea is, quoting; "that man is not truly one, but truly two" - humans aren't 'good or evil', we are mixture of both. Everyone has their 'sins', but if you are trying to help others, at the end it doesn't matter as all people around you is like this. We aren't saints, we are humans.
I hope my message could help you at least a little bit.
I know that things aren't in black and white but more like different shades of grey but somehow I can't see that no matter how aware i am of it my feelings can't take that information into consideration? It's so weird. I've always felt like the worst thing possible. But it is true that helping and loving others is all that counts. Anyways im just rambling thank you for reassuring me kind stranger
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