Well. Great. I've developed some sort of health issue over the past two weeks. First, it was a severe bout of insomnia which isn't too out of the norm for me. I've suffered intermittent insomnia since childhood so I'm pretty much used to it. I went to the doctor and got some medication to help me sleep, same meds I was prescribed as a teenager so it was all good. Sleeping returned to normal. I wen... » Continue Reading
I don't even know where to begin. My mother passed away in an accidental house fire on the morning of February 18th, 2023. According to the coroner, there was no evidence to suggest foul play or that she suffered in death. If the fire never happened, she would have turned 49 just two days later on February 20th. Needless to say, I am absolutely devastated... And that hardly even describes the grie... » Continue Reading
Hello. I'm actually using my phone to write this entry, which is very weird! I normally use the laptop. I have arrived with a general update to my life since my last blog entry was about three months ago... Where has the time gone, really? So I am employed again. Yes, really. I never thought that I'd be able to work again with how crippling my anxiety normally is with jobs and such. But this posit... » Continue Reading
I describe myself as a 99% sex repulsed demisexual. I dislike seeing sexual content that I did not consent to seeing. Twitter is a fucking minefield in this regard, considering how they try to push stranger's content into your feed. I swear about 60% of Twitter accounts are pushing their OF content. No shame on them, hell, I did OF for a while. It's not easy in the slightest. But like, I wish the... » Continue Reading
I wouldn't say this is a rant so I did not tag it as such in the title. Not sure what I want to categorize it as. I am not against anyone posting selfies (as blog posts or bulletins) on here. I think you're all lovely, beautiful people. This is a personal preference I want to hold myself to. I don't want to post selfies on here unless I'm changing my default photo. I think that there's enough of t... » Continue Reading
I don't like horror. That's it. I can do the occasional ghost/haunting flick, but slashers are an absolute no go. There's nothing wrong with that, either. Even if I enjoy darker aesthetics and music, I do not have to also enjoy horror movies by default. I cannot be the only one who goes through this, although it must be a very extreme minority. Every person I've met who loves alt fashion/music als... » Continue Reading
I hate the grindset mentality. People will hear me groan at the mention of taking a huge workload and assume I'm lazy. No, it's not because I don't like working. I don't mind work, but I hate being forced to work for minimal reward. My time on this Earth is important, yet I'm expected to be charitable toward companies with my precious living time. I'm not lazy. I just want to live life without pay... » Continue Reading
Will I ever shut up about the plague that is modern social media? Probably not. I mean, how can I be expected to? I was thrown into the relatively untamed wilderness that was the internet in the mid-2000's. It was a truly beautiful thing before greedy suits decided it was time to cultivate consumerist garbage from digital freedom. What I am complaining about today has to do with something that is ... » Continue Reading
We live in the digital age, there's no denying that anymore. Nearly the entirety of human knowledge at our fingertips from a single, little rectangular device in our pockets. How do we monkey-brain humans use it though? Why, to advertise of course! But, I've already had my whiny blog about corporate internet though so... But I promise corporate internet has it's hand in this issue too, I promise. ... » Continue Reading
I was commissioned by my friend and Techno artist, TNL VZN to create a piece for his upcoming track, "Infinitely Oni." I am extremely proud of it and I put a lot of work into it, so please enjoy! "Infinitely Oni" drops tomorrow at 6PM EST. Check out TNL VZN on SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/tim-esser-6 » Continue Reading
Short rant here. I am, to the surprise of no one, a pretentious asshole when it comes to art. I'm not like, one of those infamous art snobs but I have definitely adopted some form of snobbery. Anyway, here is my small rant of the hour: I hate modern pop art. I mean, I guess that's what it is, right? For example, there are people who literally just paint pictures of Patrick Star ("Spongebob Squarep... » Continue Reading
Isn't it interesting being in this position now, my fellow elder emos? How odd it is to say that. There are children and teens so enraptured by what we did when we were their age that they're emulating the style! It's sort of flattering in a way, but also funny? It's almost like they're roleplaying as compared to what those days were actually like. (Not hating at all!) I miss those bygone days of ... » Continue Reading