survey [stolen from Möbus]

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?

• Yes, but then again I smile for almost every emotion.

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to:

• Frank Ilfield’s I Remember You, the song reminds me of past relationships and my current one. It’s bittersweet, upbeat but the entire tone of the song feels melancholic. 

What color are your eyes?

•   A deep brown.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?

• Someone else’s bed.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

• Two

What would your name be without the first three letters?

• El 

Last thing you touched not computer-related?

• A bagel

What colors are you wearing right now?

• Grey, black, a dull beige

You currently in a fight with someone?

• I hope not. I don’t like wasting energy on anger. 

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?

• A few times. I don’t remember why.

Do you have an older brother?

• I am the older.

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

• Oh all the time. It’s very easy to make me laugh.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?

• Nowadays I’ve gained more confidence in how I type, so I don’t look very often.

What are you listening to right now?

• OSCOB - FOLKLORE because I need to calm my head down.

Do you laugh a lot?

• When I’m with good company, yes.

Are you ticklish? 

• Not really. If you try to find out, you’ll be sorely disappointed.

What always makes you feel better when you're upset?

• Distractions and sleep. Drown my head out with some cheap dopamine and hope that I forget about whatever I’m crying over. 

Have you ever been in a boat?

• One or twice in my life. I wouldn’t go on one again.

Last person you gave a hug to?

• My partner

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you're wearing.

• I am wearing the air as a shirt. 

When you are home alone do you still close the door when you shower?

• I’d leave it open if the steam didn’t threaten to hit the fire alarm. 

Do you have plans for today?

• Catching up on my studies, starting a few projects for uni, maybe socializing? I’ve been zoned out mentally for the past week, so part of the plan is to reconnect with my body. I’m very hyper today. 

When is the last time you took a nap?

• Yesterday. The day before I didn’t sleep a wink so the no-sleep energy caught up with me full force. 

What was on your mind most today?

• The overwhelming thought that I’ll never be good enough for myself, and that is why I want to ruin myself as a punishment for existing. Also that I'm very fucking hyper.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?

• Of course I talk about them. For better or worse. I have a hard time hiding how I feel. 

What instant messaging service do you use?

• Text, mostly. Contemplating on getting a Telegram…

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?

• Eventually I do fall asleep but it takes a good hour or so to settle my mind. But the ‘sleep’ itself is short lived.

Do you have any siblings?

• I have a younger shit-ling

Do you get along?

• Sometimes, when I make references and words that correlate to their interests.

What are you drinking?

• Fridge water. 

Honestly if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you?

• There are too many parts about myself that I would change.

Do you know what you're wearing tomorrow?

• Similar items to what I am wearing today, maybe an additional sweater. I don’t have a large wardrobe. 

Do you know anyone who smokes weed?

• Of course, I live in a university. The hallway of the building I’m in always smells of it.