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People try to help you. I know. Why do you reject their help? Because I make it worse for myself. You have people who care. I know. Why do you think they all hate you? I hate me. Why do you always complain? Because I can't see what's good anymore. What's wrong with you? I dont know. I make more problems for myself. I can't breathe, can't see, can't speak, can't remember, can't do anything right. I... » Continue Reading
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I don't like how I look. I'll look in a mirror and find everything wrong. Do normal people do that? I dont know. I change everything I can, waiting to change more, but there's one thing I can't change yet. Another thing I can't change ever. No matter how different you make yourself look, you can't change you. No matter how hard you try, you're still you. A broken, insecure mess. But that's okay. I... » Continue Reading
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Are you excited for the new year? No. why not? I dont know. Well then, pretend you are! Don't make everyone else unhappy just because you aren't. Okay. Are you scared of the new year? Yes. Why? I dont want to lose anything else. Do you wish you could go back? Stay in one year forever? Yes. Even a year you didn't exist in? Yes, especially then. To bad. Just watch the years go by, till we all get ol... » Continue Reading
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People are worried. Are they worried? Why am I in such denial? It's getting worse. I'm tired of doctors, tired of pills. Why can't they just fix me already? Why can't they just make me normal? Find the right pill and make it stop? It's because they don't care. Once I'm fixed, they aren't being paid. They don't want to fix me. I'm to broken to fix either way. I'm falling, falling, falling behind an... » Continue Reading
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People are worried. Are they worried? Why am I in such denial? It's getting worse. I'm tired of doctors, tired of pills. Why can't they just fix me already? Why can't they just make me normal? Find the right pill and make it stop? It's because they don't care. Once I'm fixed, they aren't being paid. They don't want to fix me. I'm to broken to fix either way. I'm falling, falling, falling behind an... » Continue Reading
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Insane? Not yet. Sane? Far from it. My pills are gone, the shadows scare me. Are you paranoid? What's that sound? Who's over there? I dont know. You can't see it? Right, I'm the crazy one. Right? Right?? I'm depressed, is what they told me. I already know that. Are you? Do you hear them? They're on the roof. No they're not. They aren't real, right? I'm going crazy again. Are you going crazy? Me to... » Continue Reading
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If i died tomorrow, would it matter? Would you care? Sorry, I'm sorry, so very fucking sorry that I can't stop thinking what if do without you. What would I do? I dont know. Die is what I'd do. Scared. Scared to say anything, scared to be weak. Crying, crying every night. Always alone. Scared to say i don't want to be alone. Before I was fine, the loneliness was the one fried I had. Now I don't kn... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
If i died tomorrow, would it matter? Would you care? Sorry, I'm sorry, so very fucking sorry that I can't stop thinking what if do without you. What would I do? I dont know. Die is what I'd do. Scared. Scared to say anything, scared to be weak. Crying, crying every night. Always alone. Scared to say i don't want to be alone. Before I was fine, the loneliness was the one friend I had. Now I don't k... » Continue Reading
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The sun is bright, is it bright to you? Yeah? I like your hair, do you like mine? I think your funny, do you think i am? Wow, I think im falling. falling, falling into a hole. What am i doing? Am i just a fuck and forget? Tell me I'm not. I think im delusional. I know I'm scared, are you scared? I'm scared of committing, are you? I dont wanna fuck up. Will you be mad if I do? Will you be sad if I ... » Continue Reading
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So many people around me, so many who like me or at east pretend. But I still feel alone. Very alone. Do you feel alone? Do you feel overwhelmed by the noise and Neverending loneliness? Oh, okay. People i once knew are gone, miles away. Some six feet down. Will you stay? No? Okay, that's fine, ill be okay. Will you? Wait you don't know me. That's fine. I dont know me either. -BoyScouts » Continue Reading
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Sorrysorrysorrsorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry Have you ever done something bad before? Probably. Something really bad? Like something that broke you to pieces? Something you can't ever take back? Have you? No? Try harder. How about now? No? That's fine. Sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry Have you ever lost something that held you together? No? Yeah it's cool, it's fine. Did you lose... » Continue Reading
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Alone, Alone, always Alone. Are you alone? Me too! Do people leave you too? Me too! Do they think you'll be fine? Yeah, Me too! So much in common! Oh, you think I'm cool? Okay, sure, I don't. You think I'm hot? No, not really. No, no, no I'm just really horny, wanna fuck? Okay, yeah, cool. I'm scared. Of what? I dont know. Are you scared of committing to things? No? Oh, okay. I cant commit to a th... » Continue Reading
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