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People are worried. Are they worried? Why am I in such denial? It's getting worse. I'm tired of doctors, tired of pills. Why can't they just fix me already? Why can't they just make me normal? Find the right pill and make it stop? It's because they don't care. Once I'm fixed, they aren't being paid. They don't want to fix me. I'm to broken to fix either way. I'm falling, falling, falling behind an... » Continue Reading
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People are worried. Are they worried? Why am I in such denial? It's getting worse. I'm tired of doctors, tired of pills. Why can't they just fix me already? Why can't they just make me normal? Find the right pill and make it stop? It's because they don't care. Once I'm fixed, they aren't being paid. They don't want to fix me. I'm to broken to fix either way. I'm falling, falling, falling behind an... » Continue Reading
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Insane? Not yet. Sane? Far from it. My pills are gone, the shadows scare me. Are you paranoid? What's that sound? Who's over there? I dont know. You can't see it? Right, I'm the crazy one. Right? Right?? I'm depressed, is what they told me. I already know that. Are you? Do you hear them? They're on the roof. No they're not. They aren't real, right? I'm going crazy again. Are you going crazy? Me to... » Continue Reading
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If i died tomorrow, would it matter? Would you care? Sorry, I'm sorry, so very fucking sorry that I can't stop thinking what if do without you. What would I do? I dont know. Die is what I'd do. Scared. Scared to say anything, scared to be weak. Crying, crying every night. Always alone. Scared to say i don't want to be alone. Before I was fine, the loneliness was the one fried I had. Now I don't kn... » Continue Reading
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If i died tomorrow, would it matter? Would you care? Sorry, I'm sorry, so very fucking sorry that I can't stop thinking what if do without you. What would I do? I dont know. Die is what I'd do. Scared. Scared to say anything, scared to be weak. Crying, crying every night. Always alone. Scared to say i don't want to be alone. Before I was fine, the loneliness was the one friend I had. Now I don't k... » Continue Reading
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The sun is bright, is it bright to you? Yeah? I like your hair, do you like mine? I think your funny, do you think i am? Wow, I think im falling. falling, falling into a hole. What am i doing? Am i just a fuck and forget? Tell me I'm not. I think im delusional. I know I'm scared, are you scared? I'm scared of committing, are you? I dont wanna fuck up. Will you be mad if I do? Will you be sad if I ... » Continue Reading
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So many people around me, so many who like me or at east pretend. But I still feel alone. Very alone. Do you feel alone? Do you feel overwhelmed by the noise and Neverending loneliness? Oh, okay. People i once knew are gone, miles away. Some six feet down. Will you stay? No? Okay, that's fine, ill be okay. Will you? Wait you don't know me. That's fine. I dont know me either. -BoyScouts » Continue Reading
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Sorrysorrysorrsorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry Have you ever done something bad before? Probably. Something really bad? Like something that broke you to pieces? Something you can't ever take back? Have you? No? Try harder. How about now? No? That's fine. Sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry Have you ever lost something that held you together? No? Yeah it's cool, it's fine. Did you lose... » Continue Reading
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Alone, Alone, always Alone. Are you alone? Me too! Do people leave you too? Me too! Do they think you'll be fine? Yeah, Me too! So much in common! Oh, you think I'm cool? Okay, sure, I don't. You think I'm hot? No, not really. No, no, no I'm just really horny, wanna fuck? Okay, yeah, cool. I'm scared. Of what? I dont know. Are you scared of committing to things? No? Oh, okay. I cant commit to a th... » Continue Reading
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Every day is always the same. Grades, people, music, responsibilities, lights, noises. Lights are to bright. Lights hurt my eyes. Do they hurt your eyes? Do you see someone walking across the room when they're on? No? Maybe that's just me. The Lights are always to bright. Cycle repeats. Grades, people, music, responsibilities, Lights, noises. Noises are to loud. Are they to loud for you? Do they m... » Continue Reading
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What's the day? I don't know. What's the time? I don't know. What's the day? I just asked that. I don't remember. What's my name? I forgot again. What's your name? I forgot again. What's my age? I don't remember. What's the day? I already asked that. Did I ask that? I don't remember. What's the day? I forgot again. Always forgetting things. What did I forget? I don't remember. What's the day? I do... » Continue Reading
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I've never liked my birthday. It's always been bland and overrated and overwhelming. I dont like when people pay that much attention to me and waste their time for me. I was never good enough for that. When I was younger I'd pretend it was fine but it never was. I never liked it. I haven't had a party since I was 7 and I'm glad for that. Gifts are less frequent and never actually on that day, and ... » Continue Reading
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