11/2/24

The sun is bright, is it bright to you? Yeah? I like your hair, do you like mine? I think your funny, do you think i am? Wow, I think im falling. falling, falling into a hole. What am i doing? Am i just a fuck and forget? Tell me I'm not. I think im delusional. I know I'm scared, are you scared? I'm scared of committing, are you? I dont wanna fuck up. Will you be mad if I do? Will you be sad if I do? I'll try not to I swear. You have pretty eyes. Fuck I'm falling again. Fuck fuck fuck. Fuck me fuck you, just a fuck and forget, right? No. I hope I dont fuck up. Don't let me fuck up. Will you hate me if I do? I hate me. Do you hate me? No? Can I hold your hand? No, I'm scared to ask so I won't. I want to hold your hand. Can we stay this way and pretend nothing else exists? Please? I dont want to go back. Tell me this is real. Is this real? I don't know anymore. I'll be good i swear, please don't leave. Will you leave? You say no. Did you say no? Did I ask? I dont remember. I'm falling again. Fuck I'm scared again. 

-BoyScouts