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Category: Writing and Poetry
I stare in the mirror, Someone stares back. The person in the mirror isn't me, Not who I'm trying to be, But who I'm trying to leave. I dont like the person in the mirror, They don't like me either. I'm just the man who can't stop staring at themself Is it selfish? Is it rude? » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
I'm sorry I'm not perfect. Who are you apologizing too? Myself and everyone. Why? It's not your fault of what happened. What happened. What did happen? It's fuzzy now, after years of denying it, I still see it. Fuzzy but oh so clear. I tell myself it didn't happen, it's not what I think. She was younger than me, how could she be the villian and I the victim? I look myself in the mirror. Look at ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
I'm sorry I'm not perfect. Who are you apologizing too? Myself and everyone. Why? It's not your fault of what happened. What happened. What did happen? It's fuzzy now, after years of denying it, I still see it. Fuzzy but oh so clear. I tell myself it didn't happen, it's not what I think. She was younger than me, how could she be the villian and I the victim? I look myself in the mirror. Look at ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
The world is going downhill, this country is collapsing. People need to wake the fuck up and stop glorifying people who are in the wrong, bad people. They don't want to, though. They want to keep living a lie, think it's fine, everything's still fine. Right? Maybe for some. Some are unaffected. Some don't care. Some believe what they want you to believe. No one questions it. It's how they control... » Continue Reading
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When it rains It reminds me of the week That had followed The terrible tragedy That had occurred It rained all week long I didn't want to go I had no choice After I stayed Unmovin » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
"You have everything you could've wanted or need, more than others. If you're so lucky, why aren't you happy?" I write my thoughts to make sense of a world that doesn't make sense. My thoughts are conversations. Conversations between me, myself and I. Why aren't I happy? Because none of it matters. Not anymore. The good things people try advocating aren't being helped. Causes aren't being helped b... » Continue Reading
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Im sorry if I make you feel bad. I make me feel bad too. "Your a good person." Nice things I do don't make me nice. I still feel bad. "You'll be fine." Nothing is fine anymore. No one can do the simplest things without struggle. Especially not me. "You look happy." I don't know what it's like to feel happy anymore. Do you know? I make bad plans that hurt me, hurt you, hurt t » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
Im sorry if I make you feel bad. I make me feel bad too. "Your a good person." Nice things I do don't make me nice. I still feel bad. "You'll be fine." Nothing is fine anymore. No one can do the simplest things without struggle. Especially not me. "You look happy." I don't know what it's like to feel happy anymore. Do you know? I make bad plans that hurt me, hurt you, hurt t » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
People try to help you. I know. Why do you reject their help? Because I make it worse for myself. You have people who care. I know. Why do you think they all hate you? I hate me. Why do you always complain? Because I can't see what's good anymore. What's wrong with you? I dont know. I make more problems for myself. I can't breathe, can't see, can't speak, can't remember, can't do anything right. I... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I don't like how I look. I'll look in a mirror and find everything wrong. Do normal people do that? I dont know. I change everything I can, waiting to change more, but there's one thing I can't change yet. Another thing I can't change ever. No matter how different you make yourself look, you can't change you. No matter how hard you try, you're still you. A broken, insecure mess. But that's okay. I... » Continue Reading
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Are you excited for the new year? No. why not? I dont know. Well then, pretend you are! Don't make everyone else unhappy just because you aren't. Okay. Are you scared of the new year? Yes. Why? I dont want to lose anything else. Do you wish you could go back? Stay in one year forever? Yes. Even a year you didn't exist in? Yes, especially then. To bad. Just watch the years go by, till we all get ol... » Continue Reading
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People are worried. Are they worried? Why am I in such denial? It's getting worse. I'm tired of doctors, tired of pills. Why can't they just fix me already? Why can't they just make me normal? Find the right pill and make it stop? It's because they don't care. Once I'm fixed, they aren't being paid. They don't want to fix me. I'm to broken to fix either way. I'm falling, falling, falling behind an... » Continue Reading
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