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it's getting difficult to see beyond the day to day life i live in a way that's healthy and offers a path forward. i'm finding myself questioning if i'm living the same week over and over, and i've yet to find a conclusive answer. supposedly things will improve when my pay rate maxes out. but then again, i was told that things would improve when we moved. and before that, i was told that things wo... » Continue Reading
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do you ever get the feeling that even the friends that you feel you hold dear don't really consider you close at all? how about feeling jealous when you see someone you thought was your close friend talk to someone else more often, but then feel like an asshole for thinking that way. it's not something you can help anyway, right? you can't force people to be your friend, or to like you. but it suc... » Continue Reading
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i would say that this feeling is foreign to me but i'd be telling myself a bold-faced lie. this is a constant feeling, it just wanes occasionally when i can find something to occupy myself long enough to drown it out for a while. it makes my chest feel hollow. with every inhale my ribcage inverts, my innards quashed and pierced. exhale. perforated. my head swims in a murky swamp of self-doubt, hat... » Continue Reading
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as if the sound had not been genuinely made, but only thought of. a near-silent squeak isn't heard. it is left unacknowledged and fades into the moors of time having no more made a mark than a single ant's death to its colony. a primeval scream unable to escape the lips, perhaps because one's throat is hoarse from melancholy. or perhaps simply because everything else is simply too loud. @import ur... » Continue Reading
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i'm always surrounded by a sea people. there's a buzzing humdrum of conversation and hollow metal clanking. where's my water bottle? snippets of passerby dialogue in assorted languages. a endless, incessant layer of noise. i find myself mixed and muddled within the in-between, gliding over under and through the waves of sound. the tempo rises, falls, then rises again. the sun disappears beyond the... » Continue Reading
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i've begun to loathe going on any and all front-facing social media where i follow people that i know in real life... mostly because it feels as if there's so much occurring around me and i haven't yet started participating in life, myself. i constantly feel a sense of fleeting, like i'm running out of time. every day is the same and yet everyone's doing so much. perhaps one day i'll have the oppo... » Continue Reading
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