hush

do you ever get the feeling that even the friends that you feel you hold dear don't really consider you close at all? how about feeling jealous when you see someone you thought was your close friend talk to someone else more often, but then feel like an asshole for thinking that way. it's not something you can help anyway, right? you can't force people to be your friend, or to like you.

but it sucks. it constantly feels like you're not enough or that you'll never get close to anyone. 

perhaps some people are just meant to be at an arm's length, or kept around purely for the novelty they provide.