When you're the most authentic at the borrowed basement gathering. When his touch feels like your brother's violent temper tantrum because Daddy didn't go to the corner liquor store at all. A phone number assigned and reassigned to the multiple pockets of strangers. I want her to kiss me for 3 seconds just so I can admit to everyone she wanted to kiss me for a » Continue Reading
If killing yourself meant game over or a real restart; my bathtub runneth over and automatic weapon to the heart. I cry because it’s easy. I scream because no one is listening. And I’m fine with it because what is there to say? It’s all been sketched, erased, sketched, ballpoint penned into archives and archives of “good art”. A crumb the bakery divvies to each grubby and mildly infecte... » Continue Reading
Just like cigarette smoke, blood rushing to your head is still romantic, right? Aimee Mann can play while doing a health sponsored activity, right? Do people really remember hugging their dads? Does “dad” lose all will to mean well when he’s still out terrorizing the townsfolk? Wait, that’s me again. He and I have lived about the same amount lived. Living, living, living, life. I miss t... » Continue Reading
Scroll right through my own beginning. Fall face first into someone else's ending. Pretending can only take me so far. There will be another debate on what it means to live a life shortly. Each greedy hand stuck in an unmarked honey pot. I gave up long ago. Spectator turned specter. The bones in me tremble in premature fear. I want someone new with fresh eyes a » Continue Reading
They liked the idea of you. The object of everyone's affection. The chocolate coated baby-candy-treat. You free bleed into the kitchen sink. The rain pours harder but the music is set at a low level grumble. Take all the cosmetic surgery to avoid aging like the mother that never really wanted you. This place of pop art serenity and bubblegum opium.. » Continue Reading
Body bed imprints of single girlhood but instead of 20 year old bones it’s now 30. The music has transcended to a higher priesthood, it’s all there on your receipt. Youth. naivety coins earned and then exchanged for momentary lapses of stick poke grief and an extended stay at a mattress king terrarium where things don’t always grow as intended. The girl down the street was easier, bree » Continue Reading
Well, I'm pretty fucking tired . So we'll see how cohesive this ends up being? I've posted many 'o bulletin and I'm getting pretty fucking sick of the radio silence from everyone. Either that, or the awkward comment equivalent of passing by a homeless whose finally snapped from all the abuses these brittle systems bring. (Okay, majorly dramatic , I by no means, know what it's like to really be hom... » Continue Reading
Your help: a lot of head shakes and motionless standing in doorways. My screams go into the floorboards. Full body carpet skin rotations. Reverse, reverse! Pull, spin, Bop It! Your words infiltrate the insulation that wasn't installed by a loving mother and son duo together on a cloudy Sunday morning. Instead, a room shoe box glued, taped, and painted by » Continue Reading
Endless hours on the floor looking up; my own sunscreen from congestion and a healthier existence. Obsessiveness in the form of sloppy applications of a rhinestone or half a dozen, onto department store laminate. The blue blur conceals my face as faded gray scan for a disturbance during her travels abroad. Couldn’t even recycle styrofoam for you to get a free concert. Never needed to tease... » Continue Reading
Why are some people born with both parents? How do people have a mom and a dad in their seventies plus, and does it always sometimes matter? I’m struggling . If you haven’t already figured that one out. I feel so isolated. I’m not the anti-hero that can survive not having a family or the crafty character actor who can create their own piece by piece. The camera panning into the window of h » Continue Reading
A masterful couple. to house sit amongst the vacant headed. I’m grateful for you. Resentful he made me get purple frames instead of clear. I saw her French mouth today, above it sports clear frames. Grateful for him. Grateful for him. I look like a clown always. Without charming ceramic or mantle-worthy surrealism. The mean and blatantly angry everyone avoids at lunch. Under eye mascara » Continue Reading