"Wasting space"
8teenie, niche, micro celebrity
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Category: Blogging
hi its been a while u all ^_^ i was... euphpric drugs? no dont worry i dont do drugs today smoked once wanted to buy a vape came to my senses... im ok let me tell u something im fading from this world but its too bright im not sure what to do im gonna start streaming stay tuned everyone » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
its so hardlately i was trying that thing thst ppl say when ur depressed ask for help or talk to loved ones i asked to hang out with family no one wnts to hang out wit me i jusirritate every1 i was trying to kep to myself eveyone just ssys im mean and bitchy im tryimg i just dont have a lot of energy my voice is kindof gone andi was just trying to have fun mayb i am just bitchy i got sad and pou... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
monday evening i get super depressed because i remember i have to do another week i just don't want fridays suck because the week is over and i have time to reflect on how weird i am and was and whatever i just want to die already waking up the the worst part of everyday i can't even escape in my rest. i have awful nightmares i just want this to end » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
i'm gonna try to post again try to remember why i want to be popular and a streamer in the first place i like making people smile and i like having fun sometimes i remember that i make ppl happy and people care about me and all the sad stuff goes away i also upped my antidepressants so. its possible to be happy dont worry みなにゃん！(^｡^) i'm gonna be ok i swear ill try film a clothing haul soon... an... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
we're back on the voice to text gangbangers. I want to talk about trust, never trusted anyone I never will. Not in some I had a traumatic event scar me and I'm alone wolf and I'm a special snowflake and yeah yeah yeah. It's not even a conscious decision for me to not trust people my brain ever since I was a kid has just been feeding me this narrative that nothing anyone says is ever true and it n... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
We're back to using text to speech gangbangers. I am too lazy to use my fingers sometimes I expect the mental anguish to go away with my physical health problems like when I start feeling better physically I start to wonder like why don't I feel better mentally you've had chronic depression your whole life you just a couple years ago got these chronic physical illnesses so just now remembered that... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
i never found a reason to settle down i didn't start decorating my room until i was 17 because i was convinced i was gonna kill myself by then i just dont feel comfortable staying anywhere for too long people friends and family i disconnected myself from them under the influence that it will be better when i kill myself i dont know my suicidal tendencies have ran my life for a long time i still d... » Continue Reading
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Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
ok so basically i dont have twt on my phone... i deleted it off my ipad i want to redownload i want topost but is there anything for me to say... i think im just too depressed for now ill try to be good cryingsg » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
i just always wanted to be a cute girl why am i so disgusting why canr i be cute like other girls » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
i feel like i like things but idrk wht tht means -.- i feel like if i stop doing the things i like ill become too lazy to every do them again people are motivated to do wht they like right? i feel like im performing liking things when really i just want to sleep all day but i cant so just look at me im so interesting u know is this what they meant by performative.. i just find it exhausting to ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
ok but we can be honest i only strive for you because i idolized you ur always perfect in my mind because i refuse to accept u as u r im chasing a dream u dont exist not even the u out there could measure up. not even u can fit the mold ive created of u ur a belief not a person » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
sometimes i want to reach out to talk to someone but the person i want to talk to is not here i collected a bunch of people to make you again shoved them into a you shaped mold but it doesn't quite fit . sometimes all this people still don't satisfy my urge » Continue Reading
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