i tried to hang myself today but stupid childproof bottles

its so hardlately

i was trying that thing thst ppl say when ur depressed ask for help

or talk to loved ones

i asked to hang out with family 

no one wnts to hang out wit me i jusirritate every1 i was trying to kep to myself

eveyone just ssys im mean and bitchy im tryimg i just dont have a lot of energy  my voice is kindof gone andi was just trying to have fun

mayb i am just bitchy

i got sad and pouted and tried to hang myself

i tyed some sheets into a noose and tied them to my fan

its suicide proof because it just slouched over and the ceiling creaked from me tugging on it

i realized its stupid to kill myslef when im gonna die anyway

i wished i could go out to the balcony and smoke but i havw nothing to smoke

i wished i could sit doen and cut myself i dont have thw energy

every breath feels like a mistake 

everything i do is a burden 

i cant