"i'm better off alone than i would be in your arms."
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Category: Writing and Poetry
it grows and it spreads, thick black ooze taking over what was once your home. it looks the same but it can never feel the same. having to defend yourself for daring to come back. and boo hoo, little old me, for loving my teddy bear too tight and wanting to stay under the roof that's kept me dry and the walls that kept me safe from mom's closed fists and bottles of whiskey. and woe is me for growi... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
wow we have so much in common USERNAME! we could be best friends! you just have to fit my criteria first, shave off a little of that, add a little of this, change your clothes... you're still not the perfect shape, but it's okay, i love you anyway! we'll have so much fun together! all you have to do is stop listening to that band i hate and quit drawing those gross monsters... it'll be worth it th... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
sometimes when the light hits my eyes just right, i think of you. i think of how romantic it would be to spill my guts on the floor to see you smile. i'm not sure if i ever wanted you, or what i thought of you. i'm not even sure if i wanted you to love me. maybe all i wanted was for you to break me beyond all hope of repair. it doesn't matter much anyway. the only thing worse than heartbreak is to... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
if i had a jar full of names i'd light a match and drop it in just to see you burn green (and by the way, it's not really your color. wouldn't be even if you could see it.) blocking you isn't enough. i want you dead (in a glue trap- inhumane treatment and being a little cringe are the same thing to you, i guess.) [1:35 AM:] i don't care if i have to go back to middle school. if i have no friends l... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
be the bigger person. isn't that funny. i've never thought myself a saint; i'm a mistake and a half, and the other half is so indented with clawmarks from gripping fast to life that it's eroded to sawdust and broken glass. i lay myself bare for the world to see not out of desire but need. i will live, i must live, and this broken one-fourth existence is mine to sink my teeth into forever. but you,... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
you make me sick, sick, and sicker, every time i dare to love again. i bear my heart to you- see it, feel it. i breathe you in and blacken my lungs with nicotine. i love you. i hate that i do. i'm starting to think i've grown addicted to the hurt, because the truth is the highs never really feel that high. my heart aches for you, but when you're around i just feel... content, complacent. i'm never... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
do you think, in the dead of night, that you're most vulnerable at your safest? that the walls that keep you safe will one day crumble around you, revealing termites and rats and mold and all the ugly things you never wanted to see? and of course, it isn't the fault of the rat that it must eat and breed, no fault of the mold's that its spores are fatal to human consumption... it's only the fault o... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
i mean, think about it. i'll never be as beautiful or as bright. i'll never burn the way you do. there's always going to be darkness concealing my flaws and all my jealousy and the fucking obsessive way i think about you. my favorite necklace doesn't even glimmer without your light. it's fucking crazy the things you don't know about me, little mouse. you don't know about the cuts and the oil burns... » Continue Reading
— 5 Kudos
Category: Writing and Poetry
sometimes, my head feels like a gaping manhole, a gash in my own rationale. another climbs down, and another, feeding the endless void and stoking the flames of hell; hot burns the engine fire. each compartment carefully slashed, we're taking on water at an alarming rate. this vessel was overbooked- or are there not enough lifeboats for the three of us? we have a mob on the port side- i guess you ... » Continue Reading
— 4 Kudos
Category: Writing and Poetry
so excuse the intrusion, this isn't my place. i guess i have to put my money where my mouth is and the blade to my skin for real this time. i hope i give myself oil burns beyond recognition tomorrow. i am shit- no way around it. i'll never be a good person as long as i try. i'm always fucking doomed to be the villain. i'm toxic. i'll hurt you if you get too close and even just fucking saying that ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
head over heels, you say. like it would be anywhere else. i've seen the way my brother looks at you, rat. the way he thinks about you. the notebooks scrawled end-to-end with your name and the chewed-off cuticles and bruises and flowers with all their petals torn off. i love you not. i hate you, rat, for what you represent, what could be and has been and what i've been running from. you're the sid... » Continue Reading
— 4 Kudos
Category: Writing and Poetry
shaking at the crack of dawn. prescription pills and the lingering feeling you're living the life of someone who isn't yourself. never sure if it's the things you take to bear living that make this moment unbearable. a synthetic scream is all you need to stay awake but the caffeine is all you have left of a time before the breakdown, before memories fade and the thing you're running from is right ... » Continue Reading
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