"I'm gonna die alone in a rotting pot. aren't I?"
no matter where, I can't make friends. is it my fault ?
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Category: Life
What if I finally end everything? All the pain and despair would be finally gone. My mother already thinks I'm useless and a disgrace to her, I would never be anything good in life, my art is just mediocre. I have no future and every day feels worse and » Continue Reading
Category: Life
It's stupid. I'm nothing but being absolutely selfish, someone like me could even be begging so pathetically for friends and connection after being so closed off and emotional dry as a Grave...? I sound narcissistic. It disgust me, I just hate myself entirely for it. How could I even want that after being so awfully bad at social stuff. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
< I'm not used to taking pictures , but months ago I wouldn't even think about it. I dyed my hair, I lost count so I dont remember how many times i have done shit to it before, it ended up looking dry as hell but i kind of like it that way. I'm very sure I'm never going to take a whole picture of my face, I hate everythin » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I tried really hard. Seriously hard, I swear. I beg you to believe me. I did everything they told me, I took every pill and medication they gave me, I did everything, I tried everything. What else am I doing wrong? What else do I need to do? I lost 15 pounds from so many antidepressants, I don't have any kind of desire to eat. I cry wh » Continue Reading
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
I have been constantly Dyeing my hair. It was once entirely black, then gray, ashen, degraded, and now it's whatever the color it's on my currently pfp. (If it's still that one and not some hyperfixion of mine) I even bleached my hair. But I don't recommend, 12 hours in a chair surrounded my chemicals got my head melting for days... (╯︵╰,) » Continue Reading
Category: Life
It's been a while. And I'm slowly starting to think if maybe it's my fault that I don't have friends or...any social relation. I thought I was good enough to talk first to anyone both online and in real life and, I started panicking so much irl and I thought taht maybe if I was that bad in the world perhaps in the online world it woukd be better but, I still don't have friends. Maybe I'm being to ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Mental health clinics are not exactly my favourite place to be in. I could be taking the time I spend there to drawn or, do stuff that normal people do. still I don't feel anything about how it's going, I don't feel worse but I definitely don't feel like I'm getting that much progress on my brain. Not everyt » Continue Reading
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