"i fear this admiration will be the end of me; blurring the lines between what i want and what i need." i fear i was never much for typical relations. ive found, since ive lost my devotion to god, ive found god in others. not by finding god's good in the beauty of his creations, but by finding godhood in the man i adore. i fear that this time, i may have placed another human being too close to the... » Continue Reading
am i a "jesus freak"? i find it a bit funny. i dont really hold myself to the religion i was raised to, catholicism, yet i still find my mind reminding me of what is sin and what is "right". i wonder if i even believe in god - in any god or gods for that matter, i haven't made up my mind on this yet. recently, i was asked by my mother on a 6 AM drive, "do you believe in god?" she asked me as we w... » Continue Reading
there's a little angel that hums a tune in my ears when it's quiet. sometimes they visit me in my sleep, sometimes I'm left to the ferocities that seep into my mind like water through the grains of fresh wood. the mind is like a giant tree that sucks the life of the world out from it's roots and uses it to survive. angels are what bring us from wood to fire - set ablaze with a purpose - and i am w... » Continue Reading