"spinning my wheels"
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Life is so hard, and it's realistically only getting harder. My partner is rapidly approaching a crossroads that he will be unable to avoid, and he is having the worst time of it. My partner is a disabled man. Born with Cerebral Palsy, it is something that he will never be able to yoga-stretching-and-positive-thinking his way out of. It is his life. However, as is readily apparent by anyone even h... » Continue Reading
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Oh my God, finally a bright spot in life. And it sounds really stupid, but man, it's the little things in life, especially right now. IT'S BERRY SEASON!! The wild native blackberries are in full swing, the wild himalayan blackberries are just now coming off, and soon come huckleberries and salal, and there's fucking wild plums growing everywhere and some early apples are coming off, EEEEEEEEEEE!!!... » Continue Reading
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Man, I don't know if it's the Fascism, my living situation, or my brain, but the Black Dog is circling around again. (Tiny OSHA me* is screaming "It's the Fascism, boss!") On Sunday I just had a hell of a day with my partner, bickering back and forth, trying to get him to understand that some fights with is mother aren't worth the energy, and that not everyone in the world functions on his scale o... » Continue Reading
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Wow. Like, just Wow. If you're paying attention to the news *at all* in the USA, we've just had some incredibly fucked up things happen. More of less what the largest point boils down to is that the Executive Branch of the Regime is beholden to no court except the Supreme Court, and the Supreme Court is stacked in their favor. This will likely end up with birthright citizenship taken away for man... » Continue Reading
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Silly title, I know, but it's the best way to encapsulate what's going on inside. I'm back from Washington, and to be honest, it's good to be home. I like being around my partner and my cats, and to be in familiar surroundings. However, after a week of being away from here, and within arms reach of a culture I'm finally being able to claim, I'm starting to feel more unsatisfied than usual. I want ... » Continue Reading
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Once a year, I get to make a journey to the mouth of the Columbia River and visit the land that used to belong to my ancestors, and it is so good to be home. I don't look like what people think of as an indigenous person, but I am a tribal citizen of the Chinook Nation, and our territory straddles the Oregon/Washington border. Once a year we hold a big meeting so as many relatives as possible can ... » Continue Reading
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Well, that was short lived. Something ate the baby birds. Taken 5/15 Taken 5/21 (today) I've lit some incense for the babies. » Continue Reading
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So, last weekend I got the chance to finally take the weed whacker to my back yard and clean up a lot of shit that I had been putting off. It was a certified jungle back there, with weeds that were almost as tall as I was (I'm 5' 10"). I'd really been needing to get in there so that I can get my garden bed cleaned so that I can get my garden planted and start getting delicious veggies. So, I throw... » Continue Reading
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I like to spend time with my mom on Mondays. After a decade of not having her nearby, I try to spend face-to face time with her at least once a week, and honestly, it's really great. Recently, when our talk hasn't been about beading or plants (spring is here!!), it has been about politics. More specifically, it has been about what is happening, and what this county is being giddily led into by a b... » Continue Reading
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I love arts and crafts. I love to make shit and do shit, and especially stuff I can give away. I've done/do cross stitch, sewing, knitting, and a bunch of other stuff. Now, I'm getting into quick and dirty screenprinting (embroidery hoops, sheer curtains from Walmart, and modge podge). I love my tribal nation, but the stuff we have for wearables lacks variety. I see a lot of the folks from the loc... » Continue Reading
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It's finally starting to warm up here (not that it gets very cold here anyway) so I've got my mind on Spring and plants! I'm really lucky my landlord doesn't mind that I garden in the back yard. I've built two garden boxes, and have numerous other plants in pots, but he's okay with it. Since that is the case, this year, I'm going to try to step up my game in my garden, and make it actually product... » Continue Reading
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-VENT ENTRY- I feel like a shithead. I, personally, am a big proponent of helping people. I mean I'm not great at it. I'm trying to be better. But sometimes... Sometimes I want to scream at other people to just fucking deal with their shit and leave me alone, and it makes me feel like a terrible person. My mother-in law lives with us. She lost her last place through a combo of unpaid rent (lost j... » Continue Reading
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