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So. I missed my day yesterday, but the update was minimal anyway. I learned that I probably shouldn't drink caffeine thirty minutes before taking my pill, because together they don't feel like I am too energized, but in that dip between things taking effect/wearing off, I feel like I just woke up. Sluggish, weak, and having trouble concentrating. I rode it out and about 40 minutes after I took my ... » Continue Reading
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Today was a little different. Had an opening shift so instead of taking my pill about 10 minutes after I wake up, I had to be up and going about 2 hours before it was time. Woke up fine (no weird dreams) and had a lone cup of coffee before I was out the door. Was able to stay on task all morning --but it was boring AF. Didn't really feel any different compared to the day before: had energy, more f... » Continue Reading
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I'm not sure how I like sleeping on Bupropion. The vivid dreams was something I was sorta expecting due to research, and the difficulty falling asleep, but the quality felt like hot garbage. Like, I usually wake up feeling tired but like I've rested. This left me feeling like I was waking up after being hit in the head with a brick. Technically, yes, I have been less tired today than I was last we... » Continue Reading
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Started my Bupropion Rx today. Took my first dose about two hours ago, and I'm excited and scared to see how this goes. I'm not expecting any miracles (but always secretly hoping for one, like everyone does), but if I can just get a handle on my depression and ADHD, that's all I really hoping for. Just a little more manageability. So I have a tracker until my next check-in, I'm going to try to mak... » Continue Reading
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Life is so hard, and it's realistically only getting harder. My partner is rapidly approaching a crossroads that he will be unable to avoid, and he is having the worst time of it. My partner is a disabled man. Born with Cerebral Palsy, it is something that he will never be able to yoga-stretching-and-positive-thinking his way out of. It is his life. However, as is readily apparent by anyone even h... » Continue Reading
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Oh my God, finally a bright spot in life. And it sounds really stupid, but man, it's the little things in life, especially right now. IT'S BERRY SEASON!! The wild native blackberries are in full swing, the wild himalayan blackberries are just now coming off, and soon come huckleberries and salal, and there's fucking wild plums growing everywhere and some early apples are coming off, EEEEEEEEEEE!!!... » Continue Reading
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Man, I don't know if it's the Fascism, my living situation, or my brain, but the Black Dog is circling around again. (Tiny OSHA me* is screaming "It's the Fascism, boss!") On Sunday I just had a hell of a day with my partner, bickering back and forth, trying to get him to understand that some fights with is mother aren't worth the energy, and that not everyone in the world functions on his scale o... » Continue Reading
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Wow. Like, just Wow. If you're paying attention to the news *at all* in the USA, we've just had some incredibly fucked up things happen. More of less what the largest point boils down to is that the Executive Branch of the Regime is beholden to no court except the Supreme Court, and the Supreme Court is stacked in their favor. This will likely end up with birthright citizenship taken away for man... » Continue Reading
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Silly title, I know, but it's the best way to encapsulate what's going on inside. I'm back from Washington, and to be honest, it's good to be home. I like being around my partner and my cats, and to be in familiar surroundings. However, after a week of being away from here, and within arms reach of a culture I'm finally being able to claim, I'm starting to feel more unsatisfied than usual. I want ... » Continue Reading
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Once a year, I get to make a journey to the mouth of the Columbia River and visit the land that used to belong to my ancestors, and it is so good to be home. I don't look like what people think of as an indigenous person, but I am a tribal citizen of the Chinook Nation, and our territory straddles the Oregon/Washington border. Once a year we hold a big meeting so as many relatives as possible can ... » Continue Reading
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Well, that was short lived. Something ate the baby birds. Taken 5/15 Taken 5/21 (today) I've lit some incense for the babies. » Continue Reading
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So, last weekend I got the chance to finally take the weed whacker to my back yard and clean up a lot of shit that I had been putting off. It was a certified jungle back there, with weeds that were almost as tall as I was (I'm 5' 10"). I'd really been needing to get in there so that I can get my garden bed cleaned so that I can get my garden planted and start getting delicious veggies. So, I throw... » Continue Reading
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