The Endless Void

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"Questioning my life choices.. "

Mentally Overwhelmed, Emotionally F✨cked

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I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream

Category: Writing and Poetry

Resentment has settled deep within my soul. An ache that gnaws at me.  A manic laugh rang out in the darkness of my being and I found myself struggling to find the right words to speak my truth. The words could no » Continue Reading

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The anniversary is coming up fast..

Category: Life

I'm really having a lot of trouble processing my emotions, and the grief that came with my Dad's passing. It will be nearly two years since throat/lung cancer and alcoholism took him. ( We all tried our hardest to help him to quit and get help. But he was a stubborn old git that refused to let anyone help him, let alone let his kid see him like that. ) My Dad was prideful. He never asked for help,... » Continue Reading

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Blogging is fun, when you remember these sites exist..

Category: Blogging

I'm not exactly the most...diligent when it comes to content creation. ( In my teens and 20's, maybe. I had way more motivation and umph.) It isn't as though I don't want to, these days my mind gets overwhelmed with so many things and it feels like I'm drowning.  There are so many worlds in my mind I want to share, so much twisted art I want to create...but I don't feel like it would ever go anywh... » Continue Reading

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I guess I should introduce myself..

Category: Blogging

Not sure how to really start, but here we go..  Names don't really matter to me, at least in regards to myself. You can simply address me as "Void". It's the only one I'm really comfortable with at the moment.  Unfortunately, I am an adult and not a opossum rummaging through the garbage. 32, disabled and struggling to teach myself how to draw and better my writing. ( It's a frustrating process, bu... » Continue Reading

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Where to begin...

Category: Life

This feels so foreign to me. Like a dream lost long ago.  Keeping a journal is about self expression, unleashing your soul in order to unburden the mind. It's something I think everyone should do at one point or another.  But, I haven't done this since I was a teenager.  A journal is meant to be sacred. Secret and for your eyes only.  Yet my privacy was destroyed. My room invaded. No longer a safe... » Continue Reading

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Category: Life

Turns out the new Doctor I'm going to see today isn't an HRT specialist. He's a regular MD. ( My other PCP and Nurse practitioner that I was preciously seeing left Florida due to the fucked up laws that DeSantis put into place..)  So now, I have to be on guard while at my appointment. I'm really hoping he isn't homophobic or tries to tell me I shouldn't be on HRT.  As it stands, the Doctors here c... » Continue Reading

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HOW

Category: Life

I met with my neurologist yesterday, and I'm still confused over my EMG and blood work/urinalysis results. They cannot figure out why I have neuropathy. None of the tests brought any answers. Just more questions. Even more confusing, she said that I had an alarmingly high amount of steroids in my system. » Continue Reading

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It's not fair

Category: Life

I've been on a weird sleep cycle, again. With how much it's been raining, and the constant fluctuation in the heat/cold - my body hasn't been responding well. So I sleep all day, as best I can and then I'm awake all night. I've been trying to fix it, but whenever I do manage for a few days the air pressu » Continue Reading

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Solitude doesn't always bring peace

Category: Blogging

This is the new routine.  I'm awake all night due to an inability to quiet my mind and lay in bed. Plagued by so many questions, worries and fears. Pain flare ups due to the change in the air pressure and weather. ( Living in the south is a bless and a curse all in one. )  Life has given me so many wonderful experiences, and introduced some kind people into my life. I am thankful for everything I'... » Continue Reading

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