"the impossibility of the american dream"
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sometimes i have big problems differentiating pleasure between the act or the emotion if dat makes sense. no matter what the fuck happens, it ALWAYS leads back to this roadblock of a mindset. i just got done with possibly one of the best weeks of my life and i still feel like shit somehow?? dunno? damn it all to hell anyways its all fucked up to begin with! maybe im just looking for reasons to com... » Continue Reading
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yah so remember how i was like super stressed out abt yesterday and shit? yeah well fuck that cuz EVERYTHING ROCKSSS!!! well not everything cuz my school life is fucked up, BUUTUTTTTT!!!!! i take back literally EVERYTHING I SAYYYY!!!! all it really takes is just one good talkin too and ive figured out that i REALLY really RLRELELELLEAAYAYAYYY love hhhhehhehhrhrrrrrrr AND SHE LOVES ME TOO BELIEVE I... » Continue Reading
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i hate it all so fucking much YEAHHH IM BACK AND IM HERE TO COMPLAIN!!!!!! WHOOOOHOHOOOOOO UYAHHHH!!! i feel so fucking ill and i hate my life!! i wish i never got with my girlfriend tbh? like, i really dont like how my life is now and i feel like shes a big aspect of it, but now that ive actually felt love, i dont wanna lose it! its so selfish i know but i just dont feel good at all and i know sh... » Continue Reading
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i genuinely want to fucking kill mysellf… everyone just pisses me off now dude. my close friends make me super fucking mad and it sucks. id love to spend time alone but i just cant handle the silence so i have to force myself through the same fucking unfunny jokes. im so sick of alll of it dude. im lying to people i know aswell. they ask me questions of they ask me if im fine about certain things ... » Continue Reading
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the more i think about it the more im wondering what my thoughts are on my gf cuz liek...... honestly i think she views me more of a friend then a lover! its kinda scaring me tbh??? the way she treats me leaves me unfulfilled and sad but im just being a bit greedy and partially jealousy. in other news DRUG BUG JUST DROPPED AND EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO IT!!!!!!!! discotheque of my own misery is ge... » Continue Reading
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ive never felt worse in my life i think?? first off, ive managed my way to laughing stock of the friend group! dunno how, but i have?? i dont think my gf uses this site anymore so i can say whatever! i dont think shes happy with me at all. any other person she can get along with just fine. (some people i feel she gets along toooo well with. its wrong for a boyfriend to be controlling and thats why... » Continue Reading
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im not gonna hold it to you pal i just want to hurt myself!! not as a form of taking out my rage or sum, i want to be noticed??? im not to sure but ive been thinking about things and i came down the idea that i just love attention. i want it all! i want people to cherish me, i want people to say things they probably dont mean, i want to be told im a good person, a good pal, a good boyfriend, when ... » Continue Reading
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i wrote that last blog down at about 2 fucking am and now that its the next day i feel like shit uhmmmm…….. i go back on just about everything i said right there i fucked up » Continue Reading
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my thought process becomes more skewed throughout the day… im not a great person, already got that under wraps, but fuck man can i at least be decent?? everything felt better but its just fucking gone now man. i think its all with me though. if i had to be super duper honest, i dont think i super like my girlfriend. like yahhh i love her so much and i dont know what id do without her, but the nega... » Continue Reading
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I COMPLETELY FORGOT TO BLOG ON MY SPACEHEY IMM SO FUCKING ERETARDED !!!!!!! anywho listened to 3 albums recently!!! *twist the torniquet* by catgrove st uhhh giving birth to thunder by indian summer and uhhhhh the dismemberment plan is terrified! by the dismemberment plan and they were all soooooper gud! twist the torniquet was pretty meh honestly not that great but giving birth to thunder and the... » Continue Reading
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I feel like I'm kinda falling out with sum of my irl friendsss. its lame cuz I've known them 4 liek.... 4 years but I haven't really been going out with them recently and its been messing up our friendships hella!!! I'm just not really into the same things as they are and im just a naturally boring person and that's ok, I guess??? lowk tho they are kinda followers to one of my buds ruben... I've n... » Continue Reading
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loving someone is the most wonderful and worst experience ive ever had i think. some days i go to sleep with my heart pumping out of my chest, but some days i go to bed feeling like the one good thing ive had is about to slip from my palms. and to be real none of it is her fault its really just me to blame. i tend to think WAYYY too deep into things so something as simple as not talking much makes... » Continue Reading
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