i hope he skins me first!!!

ive never felt worse in my life i think?? first off, ive managed my way to laughing stock of the friend group! dunno how, but i have?? i dont think my gf uses this site anymore so i can say whatever! i dont think shes happy with me at all. any other person she can get along with just fine. (some people i feel she gets along toooo well with. its wrong for a boyfriend to be controlling and thats why i dont say a word but i just feel like ive been digitally cucked) but with me??? its just awkward! not even like romantic awkward just plain weird! and she keeps on making these jokes that kinda get under my skin. this happened yesterday at like 3 am i was getting really peeved by how i was getting treated by my buds over the day and one of my buds asks why my parents lock away my guns and BEFORE I COULD EVEN RESPOND she interjects with “so he doesnt shoot himself.” she apologizes later but i still hated it. i just told her it was fine and we continued on but im not gonna lie i took a drink of some whiskey b4 i came back. its happened b4 and im sure itll happen again but its whatever. its all just so fucking whatever!!! whateverrrrr!!!!! whagahahahhn!!!!! anywho stupid idiot teenager who overthinks things over and out!!!! and no comments cuz im scared of what people thinkg and its best we stay strangers