my dreams are perverted, evil little things i want gone.

loving someone is the most wonderful and worst experience ive ever had i think. some days i go to sleep with my heart pumping out of my chest, but some days i go to bed feeling like the one good thing ive had is about to slip from my palms. and to be real none of it is her fault its really just me to blame. i tend to think WAYYY too deep into things so something as simple as not talking much makes me feel more worried then i should probably. apparently ive also been a little avoidant which ruffin sucks dude!! i hate the feeling of people pushing me away so me doing it to someone on complete accident just feels like shit! i make her worry and all shes been giving me is just unconditional love!!!! i love her so much but man! i suck at being a boyfriend!!!! anywho I'll probably listen to those albums sometime this weeeek....... give my 2 cents on the weekend??? friday perhaps???? idkk