i think i am unbecoming. it's this state of not-being. moments pass and i'm aware of ephemera. is my pain not sacred. what did i do. what did i do. i guess i just miss having someone or something to miss. i can't recall the feeling. did things go too far? i want to want someone. » Continue Reading
i can’t see her. i’m a bad person. i feel like there’s not much in my head, and i’m unsure of what to say about what happened last night. i wish it didn’t happen. i wish i didn’t know. i wish she was fine. i hate cliches. that’s so terrible, how horrible, i feel badly, i’m sorry for you! how detached. yet i have nothing of substance to offer. » Continue Reading
fall out boy, bmth, RATS, games we play my concert is over TT__TT.. I had so much fun at fall out boy on 7/29 i wish the night lasted longer but the guys are so strict about following their curfew (not very punk rock of them! jk). joe was amazing, he demolished!!!!!!! especially during disloyal order. i wish i could have seen them again last night in Toronto, but along with not having my passport ... » Continue Reading
how to have fun on an empty heart you don't you cope, you broil, you steam and explode. it bubbles over but no one is there to clean up the spillage. there is no fun on my lonesome. three becomes two abhor one. i wish i could have saved us. i wish i had seen it coming. maybe i spilled over too much, maybe i didn't share enough. i'm beginning to think i've rotted from the inside out, no one that ... » Continue Reading