when i go outside and people look at me they look genuinely scared, like im a monster or a criminal, even when im dressed "normal" and not wearing makeup. am i really that repulsive? i dont understand. » Continue Reading
haaiii sorry for the inactivity; the trenches? i am in them. uhmm some updates would be i kindaa had an ed relapse. except i never "healed" from it i was just binging all the time but now i am locked in HARD. hunger makes me such a bitch. but i feel safer that way. i also started going to school again and i forgot that it was kinda fun!! if you pretend youre in a slice of life anime and that your ... » Continue Reading
september through december is always the hardest time of year for me because i get really intense seasonal depression (i am very much a spring person ;-;) and january and february kinda suck too but not as much for some reason. even tho it literally snows in those months and i dont really like snow coz its cold and slippery and wet.. it tastes good tho. but maybe its some nEw BeGiNnInGs type shit ... » Continue Reading
i cannot wait to kill myself i literally have nothing to live for, i have no passions or aspirations and im genuinely a worthless waste of space and i dont want help either so i guess that really rules me as useless » Continue Reading