i hate fall and winter!!

september through december is always the hardest time of year for me because i get really intense seasonal depression (i am very much a spring person ;-;) and january and february kinda suck too but not as much for some reason. even tho it literally snows in those months and i dont really like snow coz its cold and slippery and wet.. it tastes good tho. but maybe its some nEw BeGiNnInGs type shit that makes my brain more content during that time idk. also my birthday is in january! im looking forward to being 17 (still not old enough to buy cigs and energy drinks tho :// ). please be nice to me 2026, ive been thru enough!! (￣ ￣|||)

N E ways ive been feeling (a little) less depressed lately so i plan on cleaning my DISGUSTANG room and also myself :P i already cleaned my desk yay. i dont care much for getting better/"healing" and im just a messy person but i wanna have a clean space wtv.

currently listening to nightcore to try to get my brain to release the least bit of dopamine so ill stay alive