I recently had a new boyfriend named Vincent who is equally mentally unstable as me. We had a really good chemistry and started dating. He seemed to be really cool guy and also felt like he could understand me better because we had shared experience. But one thing is that I am lowkey feeling insecure when he talk about his exes. Well it was the part of his life but still it makes me uncomfortable ... » Continue Reading
So after spending months in depress I decided go to a psychologist. I went there and explained my situation and cried shamelessly. So after she talked with a psychiatrist they decided to put me in a hospital. But before I am going to my actual hospital I had to wait in their asylum for hours to wait my ambulance car which will drive me to the actual hospital I will be staying. The asylum was reall... » Continue Reading
My parents cannot help me because they are struggling to take care of themselves. If I fail, everything will collapse. I feel like I can't do anything. I tried to talk to a counsellor at school, and the answer I got was that I need serious help and they can't do anything about it. But what will even happen if I get help from a professional? They can't solve any of my problems. What can I even do a... » Continue Reading
Just a few days ago, I was wondering how calm and peaceful my mind was, but today it’s the complete opposite. I spent the whole day in bed and cried. I keep wondering how my life will change if I move into a dorm. My roommate will probably get annoyed with me. I don’t even want to talk about my problems right now because if I do, I’ll definitely cry again. I strongly suspect I might be having bipo... » Continue Reading
Not because of Alex this time, but because of the relationship I had a year ago. He was such a sweet person. I liked him just as he was. Our dates weren’t held back by anything weather, time, or money. It was simple. Just two broke people exploring weird places together, and it was awesome. He brought out the goofy side of me. He didn’t meet any of my checklists except for one, and it was the most... » Continue Reading
It’s been really peaceful for me. Over the weekend, I was having a lot of trouble getting my thoughts stable. I talked to Alex about my struggles. It felt dumb, but he still listened. The whole conversation was just me complaining, and he was trying to say that it’s all solvable, etc. But it didn’t get us anywhere. Of course, he probably didn’t want that. After that night, I drank some alcohol, vo... » Continue Reading
Shit idk why am I even thinking that. We broke up for 3 times and I am being like a loser and trying to reconnect with him. Pls someone slap me on my face » Continue Reading
I know it’s about attraction, but even though they treat me well, I just can’t stop thinking about their looks and I don’t feel attracted. I know people don’t choose their appearance, and I would never bully anyone for how they look I truly respect people’s souls more than their appearance. But still, I just can’t feel that attraction. I’m not that good-looking myself, and I feel ashamed for judgi... » Continue Reading
My view got it down again. Alex left me for the 3rd time. This time he was actually asking me to become his girlfriend, and suddenly one thing happened and he said we should say goodbye forever. I tried my best. Did everything he asked. Now I feel weak because I gave my all to him everything I could. But still, he was in an unstable situation. Or maybe I was. He said he felt guilty about getting ... » Continue Reading
Ever since I started living abroad on my own, my diet has been kinda messed up. The one thing I always make is spaghetti. It’s simple, cheap, and honestly… I’m too lazy to cook anything else most days. Here’s how I make it: I boil some water and toss the spaghetti in. While it’s cooking, I start working on the sauce which is basically whatever I can find in my fridge mixed with tomato paste. Somet... » Continue Reading
I’ve never really been that special person just... normal, I guess. I’ve tried drawing, knitting, crocheting, baking but I never had the patience to actually develop any of those skills. And honestly, that makes me suffer a little. It feels like I’m forcing myself to become someone I don’t even want to be a bland person wasting her potential on meaningless things. Ever since I started university, ... » Continue Reading