ouch. well at least its off my chest now. and theres only one day til the holidays so i hopefully wont have to see you ever again because even though we said it wont be awkward it obviously will be. its still embarrassing and it hurts. ive felt sick to the stomach all day and night and i dont know if its because of all the soda i drank or because of the fact that you lead me on so bad. jesus chris... » Continue Reading
I am tired of waiting on myself. im gonna do it because im the only one stopping myself. There are two reasons its taking me so long: 1. i want you to tell me on your own accord. because i feel like itll make me feel wanted by you. ergo boosting my already inflated ego (hm maybe thats why you arent saying anything either, because you also have a massive ego and you want me to want you as well...... » Continue Reading
I have a habit of getting all in my head and making myself upset and angry about things and then something happens to change my mind and the world is all sunshine and glitter again! (actually that doesnt sound like a good combo, the glitter would reflect too much and the light would hurt my eyes) Oh my god, your stupid big brown eyes and kissable punchable smile must be some sort of drug because... » Continue Reading
for my own good, i hope i never get to walk down your street and look up at your house from the pavement. no matter how much i try to tell myself "im too good for you" or "i deserve better" i know it will never ever be true because im fully aware that im just as bad a person as you are, if not even worse. i can never bring myself to say much to you because of the lump in my throat that wants to sp... » Continue Reading
i do not plan on wishing you a happy birthday on the 25th on November. and i hope that one day i will be able to do so again without it hurting so bad. the misery go round will never stop for anybody to get off so i have to distract myself with the bright lights and flashy colours just to feel something different from the constant aching in my chest because i know now you never felt the same. mayb... » Continue Reading