sometimes it feels like i'm sleeping while i'm wide awake but late at night my eyes refuse to get tired. i wish i could sleep at a normal hour but my brain thinks playing video games is more sufficient i guess my brain also thinks writing here is more sufficient im already getting sleepy now that i think i have to write a blog post instead of writing as an excuse to stay up later » Continue Reading
i don't know why it's so difficult to do what i enjoy. if i don't have a deadline or artificial sense of urgency i can't get anything done and i hate that. i want to be a "full time" writer but i can't write anything unless it's spontaneous how am i supposed to build a portfolio when i only write when im upset or depressed? ...i guess start writing when » Continue Reading
i haven't been able to start writing even though i want to and i believe it is because i feel that everything i do needs to be monetized. why is that? social media? probably. but also i feel like an unproductive person if i'm doing something for my own genuine enjoyment and not to make a profit. i hate it here and by here i mean our capitalistic society that promises freedom wi » Continue Reading