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My Best Enemy Je t’aime, je te hais. Over and over, these words spin in my head, crashing into each other like waves against a battered shore. Artur, why did you have to do me like that? Why did you have to look at me like I was your whole world, only to leave me drowning in mine? The ball should have been a dream—a fairytale night. And for a moment, it was. You kissed my hand with a gaze so inte... » Continue Reading
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The Silence He Left Behind All my friends tell me to move on, to let go, to breathe. But how can I when a part of me was ripped away without warning? One moment, he was here—his presence filling the spaces in my life that now feel unbearably empty. And the next? Silence. No explanation. No goodbye. Just a void where he used to be. It feels like insanity creeping in. Like I’m trapped in a dream wh... » Continue Reading
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A Love Story That Wasn't Meant to Be That feeling that doesn't go away just did. For me, love was always meant to be something pure, something full of warmth. Artur and I, we had this thing, this connection I thought was unbreakable. I don’t know when it started, or how it happened, but one day he was all I could think about. I was constantly lost in the way his presence made me feel, the way he’d... » Continue Reading
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Yesterday, Keith and I officially broke up. To be honest, I’m not sad. I’m not mad. I’m relieved. But it has made me think about myself. You see, I’ve been suicidal since I was 13, I guess. I’ve had multiple suicide attempts, but nothing worked—apparently, I’m still here. And I have one person to thank for that: my sunshine, Dandelion. She was the one who stayed when nobody else was there. She sav... » Continue Reading
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Today, I talked a little bit with Artur, went shopping with my friends, and then we went on a walk. We talked a lot, ate some ice cream, and just existed in the moment. We listened to the birds sing and watched time pass by. It was wonderful. Also, I passed my exam from yesterday! I’m happy— truly happy. At peace with myself in a way I haven’t felt in a long time. Next week, my friend Meredith and... » Continue Reading
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Today was… interesting. Wild, even. Got into an argument with the so-called popular kids—not that it matters. Ignored Artiom the whole day, and honestly? Didn’t even feel bad about it. Had to deal with a stupid exam, but whatever, it’s done. But you know what? I’m happy . I talked to my friends, laughed, ate some pasta (a small joy that never fails), and picked up some flowers because it’s spring,... » Continue Reading
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The older you get, the more quiet you become. Life humbles you so deeply as you age. You realize how much nonsense you've wasted time on. Today was nice. Really beautiful, if I may say. Nothing happened, but I woke up and understood a lot of shit. I'm done with this back-and-forth with Artur. I love him, but if he won’t make a move, then he’s not worth my time. And Keith? That chapter is closing t... » Continue Reading
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Lovers on the Sun We were never meant to play it safe. Not with the way he looks at me. Not with the way my body reacts when he’s near. "Let's light it up, let's light it up until our hearts catch fire…" His eyes—dark, burning, daring me to break first. He lingers too close, hands grazing but never quite touching, teasing like he knows what I crave. I feel his breath when he speaks, the warmth of ... » Continue Reading
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Falling Into Fire We were never meant to be subtle. Not the way we look at each other, not the way the air crackles when we’re too close. It’s a dangerous game—one we both love to play. Today, I felt his presence before I even saw him. He doesn’t have to speak; I already know what’s on his mind. It’s in the way his eyes drag over me like a slow burn, the way he gestures things that make my pulse s... » Continue Reading
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Powerful Today? Nothing much happened. Nothing except us being too close without really touching, throwing glances like little sparks that refuse to ignite. And him—gesturing all these filthy things, teasing, playing, making me want . But what’s the point of all that if he won’t actually do something about it? If he won’t put his hands on me, pull me in, make me his? I’m tired. Not just of waiting » Continue Reading
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Super Psycho Love I see him. I always see him. Even when I close my eyes, he's there—etched into my mind, burned into my skin like a phantom touch I can never quite grasp. The way he looks at me, the way his eyes darken, the way I can feel the weight of his stare even when he thinks I don’t notice. He wants me. I know he does. So why does he keep playing this game? Why does he keep mak » Continue Reading
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today i watched When Life Gives You Tangerine—one of the most beautiful k-dramas i've ever seen. it captured the raw essence of life in a way no other drama has. a masterpiece. the apartment is clean now, the air still carrying the faint scent of soap and warm dust. i played with my baby sister, her laughter filling the space like sunlight slipping through half-open blinds. then i sank into the wo... » Continue Reading
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