Heyyy. I'm back in the waiting room. Boring, I know. I was walking in there all chill, and suddenly the staff there's like 'yeah we'd need your health insurance card' and dude i literally don't have it. My mom has it because i don't go to appointments myself. And before i went to this appointment I had like 20 minutes so hard nosebleed my clothes were full of blood. Yeah I'm a mess today and later... » Continue Reading
Heyyy i was gone for a long time again. Many people have been talking about this inviting shit. But idk about that. The last days have been absolutely awful, but not I'm sitting in my therapists waiting room. I always do it when I'm sitting here, always writing this. It's holidays now in germany. I'll go to wilhelmshaven for holidays. Finally leaving Bonn for a moment. Girl this city is horrible. ... » Continue Reading
Yeah so dude i kind of forgot that i still got this app. Although it's very lovely. I missed it. Nobody reads my blogs except me but anyway. It's super duper fucking hot currently in germany and i think I'm gonna melt. Currently I'm sitting on the sidewalk. Idk don't ask me. But I'm sitting right in the sun, headache incoming. I finally managed to wear a shirt because i always thought 'they're gon... » Continue Reading
I swear there's someone in my house right now someone who shouldn't be here and i dreamed of it and now i feel it i hear it and i see it and it scares me and i don't know what to do should i call the police because i swear the same person knocking scratching walking in my room broke in my house i never saw the person but i hear it and i know it i grabbed a knife and I'm sitting in my room now if t... » Continue Reading
Birthdays are weird, you get a few presents, you're important for one day. The next day, you're unimportant again. Everyone who graduated you yesterday, ignores you today. And the people where you expect it the most, just don't graduate at all because they forgot. Birthdays should just be like everyday. Because after a birthday you always feel badder than before. Wow one year older, how wonderful.... » Continue Reading
Oh boy I might just go batshit insane but i swear there's something in my wall And I'm gonna break that wall with a hammer now it'll make the scratching stop i hear scratching inside my wall inside my head it's scratching inside my head i hear it walking i hear it breathing behind me i can see it it's walking it's crawling it's so many and my cat it's not real it's really not real anymore and it's... » Continue Reading
Heyy guys. Long time no see. Once again. Anyways I'm sorry. Now's my birthday (^-^) yayyy. Although i don't like my birthday. Anyway. I had my coming out today (I'm pansexual) yeah it was fine. Could've been better. And i also went boxing. Yes I'm boxing now. You might think 'oh her texting style changed' yeah i might be sleep deprived and delusional right now. BUT I SWEAR I'M NOT CRAZY. I'm just... » Continue Reading
Heyy guys. We didn't see long, i accidentally forgot, how long has it been? 2 weeks? Whatever, today i was on the darkweb. Yeah, it's very lame, nothing how tiktok shows how it is. I don't recommend it, there's only shops and scam. Whatever. Then i looked at other websites on tor browser. archive.org it's a very good website. Many old people wrote on there. It's like this just with more topics, mo... » Continue Reading
Heyy guys^^ it's me again. Today my day was literally so so boring. Right now I'm cuddling with my cats (i got three (≧◡≦). But they're biting me) yeah so i ate some noodles today (i accidentally burned them ^^') and i painted my nails black. Really boring. I basically watched youtube all day watching German youtubers named rezo and marcant. And tomorrow I'll probably go to the Drugstore, I'll wri... » Continue Reading
Guys, heyy again^^ today i wasn't doing much. Just chilling, listening to music. But in the evening i went to cologne to this china lights in cologne zoo. Yeah it wasn't very good, it was full, and goddamn expensive, but there was also some animals, whatever. The way to there was already horrible there was like this one junkie on the train and he said 'hey you got 20 cents' and let's be honest i j... » Continue Reading
It's currently half past 12 at night. Outside its like an apocalypse. Fire fighter after firefighter, ambulance, police, everything is outside. You might think: what apocalypse is this? It's new year in germany. I hate it. 2025 is definitely something we should leave in the past, because Charlie kirk, labubu, donald trump, elon musk, and so many other tiktok trends, let's just keep it behind. Of c... » Continue Reading