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"EXAMS ARE SO FUCKING OVER"

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Solo con eso

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Aunque ya no hablemos, y haya sido mi decision… Aún deseo de todo corazón volver a ver tu nombre en mis notificaciones. No porque quiera verte, no porque quiera decirte algo, no porque quiera una conclusión a lo que tuvimos. Quiero que me reafirmes, que me reafirmes que en algún momento llegué a importarte. Que me preguntes porqué. Solo con eso, sabré que todo ha valido la pena, todo el esfuerzo q... » Continue Reading

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Get it?

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“Why don't they just kiss each other? They so obviously want to.” “Yeah, why don't they?” “Yeah, why not?” “Why don't they?” “Why not?” “Do you get it?” — he said with a smiley face. “Get what?” — I said while approaching him. “You do get it!” — he yelled as he started laughing. Then, in a swoop, I took him by the legs and threw him in the water.  I did get it, you stupid fuck. » Continue Reading

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You did

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Because there, sitting on a bench, in the middle of the night, your arm arround my neck, you were saying all the things I wanted to hear. How you said I make things flow. How you asked me if you meant anything to me. How you said, how you asked, if I wished that moment would last forever, because you did. » Continue Reading

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Lucky

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I was fine. Just living my life. Not doing much, not doing little. I was content. Then those days came, and we grew close. Maybe you’ll never know how much I like you. I want to tell you, even though I know you won't give me anything in return. I can't go through this again. I’ve been trapped in this cycle for so long. I thought I could be direct. I thought I could swallow my pride. But I’ve alway... » Continue Reading

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Desires

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I know sometimes I may seem like a simple man to you, with a simple life and simple aspirations. I just wanted you to know, even though sometimes I may seem that way, there's always a ball of threads behind it. Sometimes my desires intertwine, one thing to fulfill both wants. But I gotta tell you, I'm not honest with what I want, not even to myself. That's why I'll hide. Hide behind simpler wishes... » Continue Reading

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pour my heart out

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It is so weird when you know exactly how you feel, exactly why, exactly what to do to get over it, but not being able to express it. Is it really going to sink into oblivion? Something so deep and passionate, so, so intense. I tend to express myself in unserious ways; cracking some jokes or taking about it like it's outside myself, as if it has nothing to do with me. I started writing to do someth... » Continue Reading

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you are everything

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You are the blood dripping from my arms, the cold sweat tracing my spine, the dry tears staining my cheeks, the smoke coming out my cigarette. For all I do, all that happens, is just a distraction—a distraction to keep me away from the knowledge, the knowledge that you are not here with me. And with that, I'll keep meeting, I'll keep walking, I'll keep hurting. Your face like a painting, your smel... » Continue Reading

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Cigarettes

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They took my cigarette out of my mouth. Then, while toying with their hair, they took one puff, then two, then three. Their eyes locked on the cityscape. When they were done, they put it back to my lips while looking at me, those beautiful green eyes reflecting the night lights. It might have meant nothing, but under the darkness, my face started blushing. I hope they didn't get to see me like tha... » Continue Reading

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The path

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The path is but a way to discover one’s truest wish. For I have walked it countless times by now—let me tell you how it is, how it was, for me. The path may resemble a mountain, a beach, a golden wheat field, but mine always begins as a hill. It starts steep, covered in sharp green grass, with a golde » Continue Reading

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The fallacy of infatuation

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You know the worst part? I knew this was gonna happen, and I let myself get excited anyway. It’s been a while since I’ve had any romantic interaction with anyone, and honestly, I’m not complaining. I feel like I finally know what I’m looking for, and I refuse to settle for less. Ever since I started dating, I've noticed a pattern in people—maybe because we were young, maybe because we were immatur... » Continue Reading

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The reason I hate Pride Month

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Pride Month is a celebration of how the LGBTQ+ community has continuously pushed back against oppression, advocating for human rights and freedom of speech. But how did it all begin, and how did it become what it is today? On June 28, 1969, a series of police raids targeted the Stonewall Inn, a gay bar in Greenwich Village, New York City. Unlike previous raids, this time patrons and local resident... » Continue Reading

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Dream diary I

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The Golden School         I am sitting at my high school class, over the teacher’s table and leaning back against the wall. Some things do seem a little off; both the blackboard and the teacher’s table were on the opposite side of the class, and now that I see it, the podium was under me, so it seems to be backwards, too. All the chairs and tables were still pointing in the usual direction. The us... » Continue Reading

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