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It is so weird when you know exactly how you feel, exactly why, exactly what to do to get over it, but not being able to express it.
Is it really going to sink into oblivion? Something so deep and passionate, so, so intense.
I tend to express myself in unserious ways; cracking some jokes or taking about it like it's outside myself, as if it has nothing to do with me.
I started writing to do something about it, but even on paper, I can't find the words. Am I doomed to being unable to express myself, to let my most sincere self be a part of the world?
The worst is, I know why I can't do it. I can't admit it, I can't make it real.
When it's in my head, it's private, it's only mine, as if it didn't exist. But once I let it out, it takes importance, siginificance, it has weight.
I don't know what's scarier, for me to be real, or to be imaginary.
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sidnn.y
sometimes when things feel too real to acknowledge i like talking in third person and giving myself a fake name, as if im talking about an old friend, helps take the pressure off
Nostalgic soul
literally SNATCHEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD the words right out my mouth. like its sooooo frustrating having to sit and trying to untangle your thoughts so you can put them into words and most of the time that attempt can be fruitless.
sometimes you even leave feelings behind trying to put'em into words, that's why I think paintings and metaphors are the most sincere way of self expression
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Djzoulisthier
Exactly man, you are so right I'm pretty sure that is why so many people struggle to express themselves. Some say they shouldn't let it boil up inside themselves so, then what, what are they suppose to do then? They don't have the right words or expressions to even think to let it out. So, their way to cope is to just lock it away and let it steam. I myself have a hard time to let my feelings or words out because, well what am I going to say to express such an emotional thing I thought of. Oh man our consciousness is so freaky.
P.S. sry for the lengthy comment and if it doesn't make any sense then sry I poured out every last drop of water; iykyk ;)
Don't be sorry! I'm happy to see people relate :)
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