people have somehow seen me as something special, i don’t think i am by any stretch. it’s not a lot of them by any means and i don’t mean to be self deprecating, but i just don’t see it. people’s egos get in their way of becoming an actual person - i say people like it’s the majority when it’s like a handful of the ones i’ve met - this is my way of getting out with some post relationship energy. ... » Continue Reading
i danced for around 8 years before quitting, my entire self was based on my ability to perform in my early teenage years, but it changes your body and breaks you down in a way where it ruins you. for twice a week from ages 6-14 i danced, no matter where i was there was a single constant, it formed some of my oldest relationships and earliest friends, i learnt how to be human around others in my cl... » Continue Reading
i am my mothers daughter. with every fibre of my being, i know that every strand of hair on my head only makes me more like her, that every tooth in my mouth closes the resemblence down to a T. i've fought for years not to be her, i've prayed to every god at my disposal and to every creature i knew the name of. but nothing can stop you from being who you are. i used to veiw my father as this myth... » Continue Reading
i think we put so much pressure on aesthetics and the concept of 'core' that people just kinda wash out what they like vs what they want to like. have i fallen to this myself? yeah, i fucking hate hello kitty yet here i am wanting matching hello kitty pjs and sending pictures of sanrio characters to my friends and being like 'OMG IT'S USSS' - to clarify - i don't actually hate hello kitty, i just ... » Continue Reading
first blow, first entry, first many things.' it's not like i haven't blogged before, but this forum and like, format is new. idk i always wnated to expirience the hype of the older internet and i'm right here doing the next best thing. this is like a rejuvenation of the things i luv - and maybe it's cringe [idk] but i'm toally excited about finding people here and finding friends. » Continue Reading